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It’s no problem. I won’t get in your way.”
    I put the envelope down and extended that hand. For a moment Saul didn’t realize that I wanted to shake with him.
    “You can ride on my back if you want to, Saul. All I care about is Feather.”
     
     
    I WENT HOME late that afternoon. While Bonnie made dinner I sat by Feather’s side. She was dozing on and off and I wanted to be there whenever she opened her eyes. When she did come awake she always smiled for me.
    Jesus and Benny came over and had dinner with Bonnie. I didn’t eat. I wasn’t hungry. All I thought about was doing a good job for the man named after one of my enemies by descendants of my enemies in the land of my people’s enslavement. But none of that mattered. I didn’t care if he hated me and my kind. I didn’t care if I made him a million dollars by working for him. And if he wanted a black operative to undermine black people, well …I’d do that too—if I had to.
     
     
    AT THREE IN THE MORNING I was still at Feather’s side. I sat there all night because Saul was coming at four to drive with me up the coast. I didn’t want to leave my little girl. I was afraid she might die in the time I was gone. The only thing I could do was sit there, hoping that my will would keep her breathing.
    And it was lucky that I did stay because she started moaning and twisting around in her sleep. Her forehead was burning up. I hurried to the medicine cabinet to get one of Mama Jo’s tar balls.
    When I got back Feather was sitting up and breathing hard.
    “Daddy, you were gone,” she whimpered.
    I sat beside her and put the tar ball in her mouth.
    “Chew, baby,” I said. “You got fever.”
    She hugged my arm and began to chew. She cried and chewed and tried to tell about the dream where I had disappeared. Remembering my own dream I kept from holding her too tightly.
    In less than five minutes her fever was down and she was asleep again.
     
     
    AT FOUR Bonnie came into the room and said, “It’s time, honey.”
    Just when she said these words there was a knock at the front door. Feather sighed but did not awaken. Bonnie put her hand on my shoulder.
    I felt as if every move and gesture had terrible importance. As things turned out I was right.
    “I gave her some of Mama Jo’s tar,” I said. “There’s only two left.”
    “It’s okay,” Bonnie assured me. “In three days we’ll be in Switzerland and Feather will be under a doctor’s care twenty-four hours a day.”
    “She’s been sweating,” I said as if I had not heard Bonnie’s promise. “I haven’t changed the sheets because I didn’t want to leave her.”
    Saul knocked again.
    I went to the door and let him in. He was wearing brown pants and a russet sweater with a yellow shirt underneath. He had on a green cap made of sewn leather strips.
    “You ready?” he asked me.
    “Come on in.”
    We went into the kitchen, where Saul and Bonnie kissed each other’s cheeks. Bonnie handed me my coat, a brown shopping bag filled with sandwiches, and a thermos full of coffee.
    “I got some fruit in the car,” Saul said.
    I looked around the house, not wanting to leave.
    “Do you have any money, Easy?” Bonnie asked me.
    I had given her the fifteen-hundred-dollar invitation.
    “I could use a few bucks I guess.”
    Bonnie took her purse from the back of the chair. She rummaged around for a minute, but she had so much stuff in there that she couldn’t locate the cash. So she spilled out the contents on our dinette table.
    There was a calfskin clasp-purse but she never kept money there. She had cosmetic cases and a jewelry bag, two paperback books, and a big key ring with almost as many keys as I carried at Truth. Then came a few small cloth bags and an enameled pin or stud. The pin was the size of a quarter, decorated with the image of a white-and-red bird in flight against a bronze background.
    If I wasn’t already used to the pain I might have broken down and died right