learned about roulette from reading Dostoyevskyâs The Gambler . Rumor has it that Dostoyevsky wrote that story as a way to get money to pay off a huge gambling debt. Theo believed itâonly a true gambler could write the kind of roulette scenes he did, with that perfect mix of blind hope and insanity. The grandmother who canât stop plunking rubles down on zero after just having won on that very number. Zero. Zero. Zero . She wonât stop saying it. Theo was terrified to turn the page because she knew every winning streak eventually has to come to an end. All of the grandmotherâs relatives surround her at the table, sickened by her bravado, because if she loses all her money thereâll be nothing left to mooch from her.
Theo watched the silver ball jump around the wheel.
âRed seven,â the croupier said, setting the marker down next to Theoâs chips and throwing her an apologetic look before sweeping them away.
This time she put five dollars on number seven and five dollars on number eight.
âGood luck,â the croupier said, spinning the wheel again.
If either of her numbers hit, she would win $175. She watched the ball rattle around while the wheel slowed down, popping into the number eight slot and then out again.
âBlack thirteen,â the croupier said, dropping his marker and sweeping Theoâs chips away again.
She thought about betting thirteen, but decided to push her final five chips to the number eight. If she stopped betting eight now and it hit sheâd never forgive herself.
âGood luck,â the croupier repeated.
Theo turned her back to the spinning wheel and lit a cigarette. She could hear way off in a corner of the casino the sound of someone vacuuming, then the clicking of the ball in the slots.
âBlack thirteen,â the croupier called out.
Theo couldnât believe it had come up thirteen two spins in a row. She gave the croupier a defeated smile and walked away from the table. Since sheâd done well the first time sheâd ever played roulette, somewhere in her brain she really believed she had a knack for it or that maybe she was somehow able to will the silver ball to nestle into the slots of her favorite numbers. Winning is the worst thing that can happen to a gambler. After that first big win, Theo took the free casino bus from San Francisco to Reno several times a week, telling herself she was doing it to supplement the income from her job as a cashier at the Party Store. There were coupons in the paper that not only made the ride to the casino free, but gave travelers twenty-five dollars in âfreeâ gambling money. She got paid fifty dollars to work a seven-hour shift at the Party Store, so instead of getting a second job, she would try to win a hundred dollars at the casino. The trick was getting out the door with the winnings.
Theo wandered over to a table where a few guys were clapping and yelling. The craps table is always the liveliest table in a casino. She didnât know how to play craps, so she just stood to the side next to a balding white guy wearing a ripped tuxedo T-shirt.
âCocktails,â the cocktail waitress said, stopping next to Theo.
âCoke, please,â Theo said.
âJack and Coke,â Tuxedo-tee said.
âYou playing?â he asked Theo.
âI donât know how.â
âI can show you. Iâm trying to quit,â he said. âI just got married.â
Theo nodded.
âMarriage is a compromise,â he told Theo.
She was surprised he was so forthcoming.
âYour best odds in the casino are right here,â Tuxedo-tee said, pointing to the craps table. âIf youâve got two hundred dollars to start with you can practically make a living off this.â
âI like easy living,â Theo said.
âWhatâs your name?â
âTheo.â
âMark,â Tuxedo-tee said. âYou got two hundred dollars, Theo?â
Theo