had Becky mentioned Zakâs supposed hotness? Jessica would never get her off the subject now.
Jamie stared curiously at Jessica. âDo you think Zakâs hot?â
âWhat? No! Thatâs not what I think. Obviously. Itâs what other people say.â
She glanced over her shoulder. She wanted to add that Jamie was the only boy she thought was hot, the only boy she could possibly be interested in, but Mattie, her dad and Becky were eavesdropping. It was too embarrassing to bare her soul in front of an audience.
Jamie took a step back. âWhatever. He seemed like a total jerk to me.â He shrugged and turned away.
âNot to me,â Becky said. âHe was yummy.â
âAnd charming,â Mattie added. âDonât forget that.â
Jessica sighed. They were both making this so much worse. âJamieâs right. Neither of you know him. He is a total jerk. You wouldnât believe how much he goes on and on about how wonderful he is all the time. Heââ
She stopped herself. Why was she letting Zak get under her skin and, more importantly, Jamieâs? Maybe the paralysing powder had affected her brain somehow. She wasnât with it tonight. She glared at Mattie and her dad as they finally said their goodbyes and left the room. Couldnât they have vanished a minute earlier? Their timing was completely off. But come to think of it, so was hers.
âAnyway, I should get going and leave you to your girlsâ night in,â Jamie said abruptly. âI didnât mean to crash.â
âYouâre not crashing and youâve only just got here,â Jessica protested. âWe havenât even had time to talk.â
Becky faked a gigantic yawn. âI have to go. Iâm beat already and Iâve got to finish my essay tonight.â She kissed Jamie on the cheek and hugged Jessica, making a âcall meâ gesture with her fingers as she walked out.
âThat wasnât obvious at all,â Jessica said, rolling her eyes.
Jamie laughed, his shoulders relaxing a little. âBecky means well, even if she has terrible taste in potential future boyfriends.â
âAgreed. I think this PFBââ
She lurched forward as the magazines on the floor leapt up and danced in front of her eyes. Red-hot pincers stabbed her legs.
âWhatâs wrong?â Jamieâs arms encircled her waist. She rested her head on his shoulder as the room spun wildly. He grasped her hand, which shook uncontrollably. Clasping her hand over his, she tried to steady the embarrassing tremors. She hadnât wanted him to see her like this. She felt like a really old woman.
âItâs the after-effectsâ¦â Her voice trailed off. Like Becky, her boyfriend couldnât hear the truth about her Westwood training and assignments.
âThe doctor said I might get the shakes from banging my head when I fell, but itâs nothing to worry about. Iâm going to be OK.â
Jamie bit his lip. âThereâs nothing else you want to tell me?â
âWhat do you mean? You canât possibly think I like Zak? Thereâs absolutely nothing going on between us. He turned up out of the blue.â
âWhat? No, thatâs not what I meant.â
Why did she have to bring up Zak again? âWhat, then?â
âI get the feeling youâre holding out on me about something. Youâve blown me off at the last minute with loads of my gigs and you seem to be pushing me away. I had to find out from Becky that youâd been hurt.â
The words stung her. He was right. She hadnât been there for him recently. Sheâd been gutted that some of her MI6 training sessions had overrun and sheâd been forced to pull out of going to his gigs. It hadnât been easy to come up with a series of plausible reasons about why she couldnât go out on Friday nights. Sure, she should have called to tell him sheâd been