No, you didn’t really; it just catapulted me back to a time I would rather forget. But since you asked so nicely, I was in a tragic car accident as a passenger just over three years ago. My boyfriend was driving and he was killed instantly. A drunk driver lost control of his car.” Tears were falling down her flushed cheeks; Angelina slowly raised her hand to wipe them away but Joshua reached her tears before her and gently wiped them away.
“ I’m so sorry, Angelina, I see now how insensitive I have been. You must have suffered a great deal. I know about loss and the effects it can have on the ones left behind. “Come on, let’s go, I will drop you home. You don’t have to talk about it tonight, Angelina, I am so sorry for prying. I can only imagine the suffering you have been through. I don’t normally make girls cry on a first date!”
Angelina glanced at Joshua. “I had no idea I was on a date!” she teased as she walked out in front of him into the dark night.
“ Ah, you caught me out. The question is, will there be a second date? I sincerely hope so.” Joshua reached out for Angelina’s delicate small hand and spun her around. He pressed his lips against hers for the longest time.
“ I guess there will be a second date then since I allowed you to steal a kiss from me.” Angelina smiled.
Her heart was racing so fast she feared it may jump out of her chest. The mere touch of his hand against hers made the hairs on the back of her neck stand on end once more. She already knew her heart was on the move and open to his affections. Then, without warning, her head was filled with the words she'd long since forgotten. What is a life without love? One I dare not consider. The words of her dead boyfriend reverberated through her mind right at that very moment.
Angelina had not allowed herself to get involved with anyone in the years following his death, nor had she wanted to consider a relationship. Her pain had sent her into the depths of despair for so long that in the end it was the pain, the heartache and the waking in the cold dead of night that helped her to remember that she was once loved truly and unconditionally. That it was all real and not just a figment of her imagination. That for a brief moment in time she had love in her life, pure love, a love that could never be questioned. The pain was her only reminder that Daniel really existed.
“Hey, you okay?” asked Joshua.
“ Yes, sorry, I was lost in my thoughts for a moment. Would you drop me back to my car, please?”
He nodded, slightly confused, he could feel her slipping away. One stupid question and he had lost her. Neither one of them said a word until they reached the Hare and Hounds’ car park. Angelina climbed out of the car and walked around to the driver’s side. “Thank you, Joshua, sorry I was not great company tonight. It’s been a very long time since I have been on a date, I am not too sure if I am ready for this.” She looked on as Joshua’s facial expression changed to disappointment.
“ No second date after all then? Damn, I really need to brush up on my own dating skills,” he said through a half smile. “Look, can I take your number anyway? At least give me the chance to persuade you.”
“ Okay, but I warn you, Joshua, you will have your work cut out for you!”
“ Hey, hard work is my middle name,” he teased.
They exchanged numbers before she headed off. Joshua felt his own heart beating faster than he’d ever known it to; the pull he felt towards Angelina was very strong and one he could no longer ignore. As he watched her heading off into the distance, he looked up towards the sky. “Why now? Why me? This is not meant to happen to me right now,” he shouted out into the open dark night.
They went in their separate directions, left with only their confused thoughts for company along the dark unlit roads. What is a life without love? One I dare not consider . Those words reverberated through