wouldn’t be available for the rest of the summer. I’d
stocked up on fl ip- fl ops, canceled the fl ight to Colombia, and re-
turned all the gear I’d gotten for the trip (well, technically, I asked
my mom to return it, since the thought of going back to Target
was still too traumatizing).
My dad was happy I would be spending the summer with him,
and my mom and Walter were happy that they wouldn’t have to
convince a laird to take me in. The only person who wasn’t pleased
with my summer plans was my BFF. Sophie had taken great ex-
ception to the fact that I was now deserting her for the whole
summer, especially since I’d spent the bulk of the last week re-
fusing, for various reasons, to leave my kitchen and/or room. So
when she’d pressed me to take a late- afternoon train, so that we
could spend my last day in Putnam together, I’d agreed without
even suspecting an ulterior motive.
Which was foolish, because it was how I found myself sitting
in an all- white salon with a frightening Swedish hairdresser. So-
phie had a theory that you needed a make over after a breakup.
She thought that you had to do something, right away, to sepa-
rate yourself in a very clear way from the person you’d been when
in the relationship (it probably didn’t help that Sophie adored
make overs and that both her parents were shrinks). In her opin-
ion, the more serious the relationship, the more signifi cant the
make over had to be. This meant that after most of her own break-
ups, Sophie simply changed her nail polish color or bought a new
lip gloss. But because Teddy and I had been together so long, and
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into tears, Sophie decided that drastic mea sures were needed,
and had booked me an appointment without my knowledge or
consent.
“You need a change,” she said, sitting in the swivel chair next
to mine. “I’m telling you. You’ll feel better once you do it.”
“I don’t think short hair is the way to go,” I said, brushing
some droplets off my face. Sophie had hustled me into the salon
with such skill and stealth that I hadn’t even realized what was
happening until my hair was being washed.
“Okay, maybe not short,” she relented, giving herself a push
and spinning around once in her chair. “But a change. A real one.
Okay, Gem?”
I stared back at my refl ection and saw only who I’d been for
the last two years— Teddy Callaway’s girlfriend. Maybe a change
wouldn’t be the worst thing in the world. “Okay,” I said, taking
one last look at myself. Sophie motioned Sigrid over and I let out
a breath. “Let’s do it.”
O O O
Two hours later, a stranger stared back at me. The hair that
had always been light brown was now a bright auburn. My
one- length, slightly shaggy hair had been cut to just beneath my
shoulders, with long, sideswept bangs. I looked nothing like my-
self. I certainly didn’t look like the girl who’d been dumped in the
gardening aisle of Target. Or the girl who’d been dumped again
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“You fi nd new man with this hair,” she pronounced as she gave
a fi nal snip. Sophie had told her the whole story of my breakup as
I’d gotten my color applied. Sigrid hadn’t been that impressed
with Teddy, starting with his name. “Like the bear?” she’d asked.
“No. Is no good.” I’d tried to explain that it was a nickname for Ed-
ward (which he never went by), but this hadn’t seemed to make a
difference. After hearing the story, she’d said something in Swedish,
then pronounced me better off without him, telling me that I was too
young to