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you
    but
    I regret
    your gone now
    I want you
    but
    you've left again
    I'd stop you this time
    all on my own
    if I was certain of what you truly felt
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    Misery
    I don't want to disown
    those who've always been there
    so I shall remain loyal
    and allow my heart
    to spoil
    misery I shall feel
    for as long as I am on this earth
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    Why did you have to talk to me?
    Couldn't you just stay away?
    Do you have to speak to all my friends?
    What about those who hate me?
    Why so close with them?
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    The 'Tease'
    My pupils grow
    I giggle
    I'm in Love
    I'll go wherever you decide
    take a seat
    by your side
    I'm interested
    You look my way
    You're coming closer
    Smile
    I frown
    turn up my nose
    But I'm still in love
    You tell me I have beautiful eyes
    I fold my arms
    accuse you of lies
    I won't accept false charms
    But I’m still interested
    You'll catch me looking
    but I’ll just ignore your smile
    The tease
    I want to be yours
    But won't
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    Do I drive you insane?
    Is that why you avoid my eyes?
    Are you playing with me?
    I know I am a pain
    But don't you hear my cries?
    I’m a stain
    etched permanently on your heart
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    You were so kind
    I worshiped the very ground
    of each step you took
    Let’s rewind to the past
    before the very sound of my voice
    made you look down
    in annoyance
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    I want the past
    how did things get this way?
    You used to defend me
    but that faded fast
    and today
    our friendship is empty
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    I still remember being in love with you
    Your eyes
    Those lips
    My body fit so perfectly nestled with yours
    Like two puzzle pieces
    Connected at last
    We finished the picture and made it beautiful
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    Now you're The One
    I ran through the tall itchy grass
Heart racing, out of breath
Watched it part like the red sea
No people came through
Just you
I ran
tripped over a rock and fell to my knees
You hissing
“No, please!”
I just begged
Your evil laugh echoed in my head
You a black Cobra hovering above
Mouth full of venom and acid in your blood
“I hate you!” I screamed as your poisoned dripped
eyes closed at your lunge
but no bite did I feel
I look up
see you in the trapper’s grip
I look through the museum glass
Now you’re the one trapped
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    I Made Him Mad
    I made him mad
I wasn't thinking

I'm hiding in the woods-I hear the dogs-now guns-being shot-birds flying in the sky-I look up-my stomach-it's-been-hit

I made him mad
I wasn't thinking
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    Told Me
    you sat down and told me you loved me then took out your leather cowboy belt-told me you loved me-my legs are bleeding-told me to sit down but it hurts too much-to lean-lean against this chair-told me to grow up so I covered the scars with my cloths-
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    no longer accepted
    On some days it hurts
My heart is like a hollow cavity
Waiting to be filled
But after each examination
I’m turned away
The cavity is just too much work

That’s what I am

Each time I try
To open up my heart
I find everyone has run
I’m only fun
To tease-To hunt
But once they see that I want to stay
Suddenly
my insurance is no longer accepted
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    Used To
    I used to be able to write
Ideas flowed
Feelings poured onto paper like water
But now,
like us,
it’s a fight
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    And There You Were
    And there you were, like a disease
Growing rapidly
In my heart
Choking and squeezing
Every beat
I loved you so much
You liked me
I know you did
But I guess like the moon
You changed
Again and again
Always a different shape
You heart-is the moon
Mine the tide
Going along with what you decide
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    You Say
    you say you never raised me this way

never taught me to be so selfish

you say

but I don’t recall you raising me

and I don’t remember you ever teaching anything
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    You Won't
     
    my eyes burn

legs so weak

my stomach-it hurts

I can’t sleep

I can’t feel

I need to