“Look at me, Alice.”
I hesitate, but I do as he asks of me. My hands drop back to my sides as he traces a finger along my bottom lip. His smile soothes me, bringing me back to him. I sigh with desire and silence any thoughts that hold me back. I take his shaft into my hands again and guide it home.
His tip presses against my insides. The pain radiates through my crevice and up my back. Fear plagues me, but I ignore it in favor of a new adventure. I bite my lip, hard, as I penetrate myself even more. He tears away my inner barrier and I whimper and release him, leaving him inside.
Warm life descends from my ruined hymen. I think for a moment that I will cry, but he leans down and kisses me softly. A look of pride dances along his face, making me smile. My throbbing body reminds me of my desires and I relax against him. It’s a good pain, a pain that I’m meant to feel and will never feel again.
“Push in,” I say to him, desire taking hold of my tongue.
Charles raises an eyebrow and looks upon me in surprise for the first time. “As you wish, my darling,” he says. He reaches out for me and I take his hand to intertwine our fingers together before he thrusts forward.
I scream and dig my nails into his skin. He wraps his arms around me as my legs go numb.
“Shh,” he says to my ear, holding me tight as he rocks me with a second thrust.
“It hurts…” My lips shake.
“It won’t last,” he breathes.
I hold on tighter, never wanting to let go. I press my face against his shoulder to shield my watering eyes from him.
“No—” he says. He runs his fingers through my hair and wills me to look up. “Alice… look into my eyes while I’m inside you.”
I see his passion. His desire. Those eyes, the long and dark tunnels of green, and at the end of it all, a reflection of myself.
He groans and his hips pound me harder. The more he moves, the more the pain goes away. And eventually, it’s gone for good. I look deeper into his eyes and he grins to see the pleasure return to me. He hoists me up then, cradling me in his arms as I wrap my legs about his waist. I moan softly, our voices syncing together. His rod impales me over and over again. I bounce upon him and steal kisses off his lips to taste the sweetness of his tongue.
“Charles…” I whisper his name, completely losing myself in him.
He grasps my small body and lifts me off of him, ignoring my moans of protest. “Lay against the pillows,” he demands, “and raise your arms.”
I quiver with frustration but slide backward until my back reaches the headboard. He hops off the bed and walks across the room to grab his briefcase. I watch him move, my hungry eyes taking in his powerful body as sweat glistens off of him. When he returns to me, he holds two gray neckties in his hands. I raise my arms, just as he asked of me, and watch as he ties my wrists and latches them to the bedposts.
Charles looks at me. “Do you trust me?” he asks, sensing the fear in my eyes.
I nod.
“Say it.”
“Yes,” I speak. “I trust you, Charles.”
He returns to his briefcase for another item. A blindfold, deep red in color, one to match those worn by the girls in cages downstairs. I shudder. He slides the smooth fabric through his fingers. “You asked me why ,” he says, walking towards me. “You asked, wouldn’t that be more frightening than sexy? I thought that was so… funny.”
“Why?”
“Because when it comes to sex, Alice, fear and desire are part of the same coin.” He pauses and his words sink in. I feel confused, bewildered. But completely his. “Now that you’ve had a taste,” he continues, “would you not agree with that?”
I sigh, thinking clearly on his words even though I don’t need to. I knew my answer before he even asked the question. “Yes,” I say.
“Good girl.” He sits down on the bed next to me. “I’m going to put this on you. Once I do, it will not come off until I’m finished. Do you
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