good time. I was cool with that. I just wished I was having a good time. Brookeâs was in a building on a corner, the name lit up in big orange letters over the front door.
I didnât feel it, but I knew that confidence was everything. So I held up my head and walked like I knew where I was going. I opened the door to Brookeâs and stepped inside, my heart loud in my ears.
Iâd arrived early so I wouldnât have to compete with the music. As usual in a club, the lighting was low. But this place sparkledâthe bottles behind the bar to the right, the wall sconces, the shiny wood floor. A guy with a shaved head stood behind the bar wiping glasses.
âIâm looking for Brooke,â I said.
âThrough that door.â He pointed to one side. âOffice on your left.â
I opened the door to a short hall. In front of me, a staircase marked Private led to the second floor. A door to the left said Office . On the right a wider door tempted me. I opened that one a crack and saw a large room set with round wood tables. A girl and three guys were setting up on the low stage at the front. One day, I thought, that might be me.
I headed toward the office door. I knocked and was surprised when it opened. A pretty auburn-haired woman stood there watching me. Not young, but hot.
âCan I help you?â
She was wearing jeans and a long turquoise shirt cinched at the waist with a leather belt.
âIâm looking for Brooke.â
âThatâs me,â she said, waiting in the door.
âI wanted to talk to you about Freddy Allan.â
Her eyes grew wide.
âHe was my father.â
Her jaw dropped, and then she flung the door open. She grabbed both my hands. âFreddyâs little girl! I canât believe it.â She studied my face. âYou grew up so pretty. You have his eyes.â
I wondered at this, since his eyes seemed so sad in the picture. But I was pleased, and felt myself go red.
She pulled me into the room and sat me down in a chair opposite her. âSo tell me about yourself. Whatâre doing these days?â
I hadnât expected this reaction. âIâm styling hair right now, but I want to get into music.â Iâd never said that out loud to anyone besides Shelley. Was kind of afraid to say it. What if it never happened?
âWell, like father, like daughter,â she said. âWhen you have something, Iâd love to hear it.â
My heart skipped. âWow! Thatâs awesome! Better get practicing.â I waved in the direction of the door. âYou have an amazing place here. Stu told me about it. He said to come.â
Her expression changed, the smile suddenly forced. âWhen did you talk to Stu?â
âUh, wellâ¦â Did she know he was in town? I didnât want to be the cause of trouble between them. âI wanted to talk to him about my dad. I heard they were fighting at the end.â
She looked away, embarrassed. Mustâve had her own secrets. âYeah, well, two guys with hormones. They were together all the time. Mostly on a bus. No surprise they were fighting.â
âDoes Stu have a temper? Is he violent?â
âWhatâre you asking?â
âHow mad was he? Mad enough to kill?â
She stared at me. âCarol killed Freddy. Everyone knew that.â Then she softened. âI know she was your mother, and itâs hard to acceptâ¦â
âWhat if she didnât do it? What if someone else killed him?â
She took in a breath. âWhatever gets you through the night.â
âI just need to know.â
âWell, it wasnât Stu. Heâs big and loud, but heâd never hurt anybody.â
âWere you there, that last night?â
âSure.â
âWhat happened after the show?â
âSame thing as always. We all went back to the dressing room. They brought in some food. After we ate, we did some drugs. The guys