they tried the long distance thing but it didn’t work. He never mentioned they were engaged and that they had only broken up a few months ago.
I felt like I was going to be sick.
Then I noticed my chat box pop up. I really didn’t like to chat on Facebook but in my rush to cyber stalk Brett, I had forgotten to close it.
Brett: Hey, Anna. How are you doing?
Me: Okay…I guess.
Brett: Feeling better?
Me: Yeah.
Brett: I was worried about you.
I didn’t know whether to be flattered or run quickly in the other direction.
Me: I’m fine .
There was a pause. I wasn’t sure if he was done or thinking.
Brett: I just wanted to let you know…
There was another pause.
Brett: I had no idea you were as drunk as you were…
Another pause.
Brett: If I had known, I never would have…
Pause again.
Brett: Taken advantage of you like that. I’m really sorry.
I had to laugh. Not at the situation or his feelings about it, which weren’t funny at all, but at the fact that he felt like he had taken advantage of me. If anything, I was most likely the one who had hit on him and totally seduced him.
Me: It’s really not a big deal. Don’t sweat it.
Brett: It is to me.
I could feel a twinge of sadness in my heart. All I wanted was to have fun and I rarely thought about the consequences of my actions. But I had hurt Brett and I was beginning to understand how truly shitty that was.
Me: I didn’t mean to hurt you.
There was another really long pause. I wasn’t sure if he’d even respond. Then, he typed:
Brett: I know. It’s okay.
I could feel a teardrop roll down my cheek.
Me: It’s really not.
I waited. Then to my surprise, he typed:
Brett: Did you get an invitation to Olivia and Zach’s wedding?
Me: I’m one of the Bridesmaids.
Brett: Again?
Me: Yup. I think I get invited to be in so many weddings because I look good in hideous dresses and shine in wedding photos .
Brett: You did make that horrible dress look hot last night .
That made me smile.
Me: I’ll take that as a compliment .
Brett: You should .
He never said if he was going to Olivia and Zach’s wedding. It was in Tucson, so he would have to fly out for it.
Me: How do you know Olivia and Zach?
Brett: I tutored Zach in math. That’s how I know most of the people in your crowd.
I vaguely remembered some of the kids talking about their awesome math tutor. I didn’t pay too much attention. Even though I barely passed math, I didn’t care about it enough to even bother with a tutor.
Me: I guess you do have to be good in math to be an Aeronautical Engineer .
Brett: So, you’ve already checked out my profile. Good to know .
I cringed. I hadn’t meant to be that obvious.
Me: You caught me .
Brett: I’m flattered. But I’d be lying if I didn’t admit that I already checked out yours, too. I love that photo of you on the beach in San Diego with your friends. Nice bikini. I already have a copy of it saved to my desktop .
I wondered if he was teasing me or if he really had downloa ded the photo.
Me: Do you really have my photo on your desktop?
There was a pause.
Brett: I guess you’ll just have to come to Palo Alto to find out.
Now I was the one who was trying to think of a response. Did he really just invite me to visit him in Palo Alto?
Brett: You can also bring back my Pearl Jam T-shirt.
Me: If you looked at my Profile, you know that I’m a paralegal. I can’t afford to fly to the coast on my meager salary.
I waited. And waited. I hadn’t meant to scare him off. I just wanted to see if he was serious about wanting to see me again.
I was starting to think he had blown me off when he popped back on line.
Brett: I bought a plane ticket for you. It’s open, so you can book any date you want.
I read the line several times to make sure I was reading it co rrectly. He actually booked a flight for me. Just like that. But why? Was he really that eager to see me again? It didn’t seem possible.
Me: Really?
Brett: Check your
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