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Enjoy a night out with a guy while you’re single?” He closed in on me and grabbed my dick again, which was still rock hard, and squeezed. “I know you liked what was going on, Tyler; the proof is right here!”
     
    I felt horrible. I’d promised to always love Alex and that I’d be waiting for him when he decided to come home. Yeah, it had been two years, and being with a man, especially one as hot as Riley, had felt amazing, but was the price of the guilt I’d be feeling in the morning worth one night with someone else?
     
    “I did like it, Riley, I swear. I just don’t know if I’m ready to do this. I’m sorry if I led you on or made you think something more was going to happen.”
     
    Riley looked at me with that hurt puppy dog look again. “I think I’m ready to go home now.”
     
    I didn’t try to talk him into staying which made me feel like even more of a bastard. I really needed to talk to Andrew and I needed to try to work things out in my head before that happened.
     
    “Okay, I really am sorry, Riley.” We headed toward the door and I waved good-bye to Jesse and Big Man as we left.
     
    We walked back to my car in silence. I had no good explanation and he obviously felt rejected. God, that was so far from the truth. The truth was that I wanted him more than I’d wanted anyone since Alex and that scared me to death.
     
    We got in the car and before I started it, I turned to face him. I cupped his cheek and stroked it gently with my thumb. I needed him to hear me and understand how sincere I was. “I’m really sorry if I hurt your feelings. I hope you know it’s not because of anything you did and that I feel like a huge jerk right now.” And I did.
    “It’s okay. Andrew warned me not to get my hopes up. Just take me home, please.” There was a quiver in his voice so instead of trying to talk any more, I simply followed his instructions and took him home.
     

Chapter 4
     
    Alex
     
    “What the fuck?” Donny shouted, anger practically dripping from his words. “Are you seriously doing this to me?” My heart was racing as he yelled at me. “So, what you're telling me is that because you've decided I can't handle this and you don't want to feel bad about it, you're putting a stop to what we've got going on?” He paced back and forth in front of me, glaring at me in the process. I could almost see the tiny invisible daggers he was shooting at me from his eyes; I'm sure he wished they were real at that moment.
     
    “You know you mean the world to me, hun; I just don't want to see you hurting because of me,” I tried to explain, needing to smooth things over.
     
    “NO! I'm a big boy and I've been making my own decisions for quite a long time now! Don't you dare start to think that you can control me, because I've got news for you, Alex. It won't work out well for you.” He was pointing his finger at me to emphasize each word, his voice getting angrier by the second.
     
    “I'm sorry, but I just can't keep this up, knowing that it's hurting you. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I intentionally caused you pain. You know how I am, Donny. You know how it ended up with Tyler and I can't do that again.” My heart thundered in my chest at the mention of Tyler's name.
     
    Donny practically launched himself at me to get in my face. “Do NOT even think about bringing him into this. I've watched his memory control your fucking life for two years now and I will NOT let him control mine! I fucking love you, Alex, but I won't let you make this decision for me.”
     
    What was it about me that made the men in my life turn into these angry people who eventually ended up resenting me for doing what I thought was best for them? Why did they turn on me when all I was trying to do was protect them from being hurt? “I'm sorry you feel that way, but I can't keep doing this.”
     
    He let out a long frustrated groan, one that made it clear just how pissed off he was, and then he