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laughter that surprised me. I didn’t
     want their voices in my head, their ideas of me, nor their own stories or problems.
     Why would they want mine?
    But I did not mind that a sense of camaraderie had begun to take hold, even if it
     would prove short-lived. The psychologist allowed us each a couple of beers from the
     store of alcohol, which loosened us up to the point that I even clumsily expressed
     the idea that we might maintain some sort of contact once we had completed our mission.
     I had stopped checking myself for physiological or psychological reactions to the
     spores by then, and found that the surveyor and I got along better than I had expected.
     I still didn’t like the anthropologist very much, but mostly in the context of the
     mission, not anything she had said to me. I felt that, once in the field, much as
     some athletes were good in practice and not during the game, she had exhibited a lack
     of mental toughness thus far. Although just volunteering for such a mission meant
     something.
    When the nightly cry from the marshes came a little after nightfall, while we sat
     around our fire, we at first called back to it in a drunken show of bravado. The beast
     in the marshes now seemed like an old friend compared to the tower. We were confident
     that eventually we would photograph it, document its behavior, tag it, and assign
     it a place in the taxonomy of living things. It would become known in a way we feared
     the tower would not. But we stopped calling back when the intensity of its moans heightened
     in a way that suggested anger, as if it knew we were mocking it. Nervous laughter
     all around, then, and the psychologist took that as her cue to ready us for the next
     day.
    “Tomorrow we will go back to the tunnel. We will go deeper, taking certain precautions—wearing
     breathing masks, as suggested. We will record the writing on the walls and get a sense
     of how old it is, I hope. Also, perhaps a sense of how deep the tunnel descends. In
     the afternoon, we’ll return to our general investigations of the area. We’ll repeat
     this schedule every day until we think we know enough about the tunnel and how it
     fits into Area X.”
    Tower, not tunnel . She could have been talking about investigating an abandoned shopping center, for
     all of the emphasis she put on it … and yet something about her tone seemed rehearsed.
    Then she abruptly stood and said three words: “ Consolidation of authority. ”
    Immediately the surveyor and the anthropologist beside me went slack, their eyes unfocused.
     I was shocked, but I mimicked them, hoping that the psychologist had not noticed the
     lag. I felt no compulsion whatsoever, but clearly we had been preprogrammed to enter
     a hypnotic state in response to those words, uttered by the psychologist.
    Her demeanor more assertive than just a moment before, the psychologist said, “You
     will retain a memory of having discussed several options with regard to the tunnel.
     You will find that you ultimately agreed with me about the best course of action,
     and that you felt quite confident about this course of action. You will experience
     a sensation of calm whenever you think about this decision, and you will remain calm
     once back inside the tunnel, although you will react to any stimuli as per your training.
     You will not take undue risks.
    “You will continue to see a structure that is made of coquina and stone. You will
     trust your colleagues completely and feel a continued sense of fellowship with them.
     When you emerge from the structure, any time you see a bird in flight it will trigger
     a strong feeling that you are doing the right thing , that you are in the right place . When I snap my fingers, you will have no memory of this conversation, but will follow
     my directives. You will feel very tired and you will want to retire to your tents
     to get a good night’s sleep before tomorrow’s activities. You will not dream. You
     will not