all.
Father wiped his face with his sleeve once more. They took turns drinking from the water bag. When they were done, Father said, âYouâre tired, boy.â
âNo,â Abdullah said, though he was. He was exhausted. And his feet hurt. It wasnât easy crossing a desert in sandals.
Father said, âClimb in.â
In the wagon, Abdullah sat behind Pari, his back against the wooden slat sides, the little knobs of his sisterâs spine pressing against his belly and chest bone. As Father dragged them forward, Abdullah stared at the sky, the mountains, the rows upon rows of closely packed, rounded hills, soft in the distance. He watched his fatherâs back as he pulled them, his head low, his feet kicking up little puffs of red-brown sand. A caravan of Kuchi nomads passed them by, a dusty procession of jingling bells and groaning camels, and a woman with kohl-rimmed eyes and hair the color of wheat smiled at Abdullah.
Her hair reminded Abdullah of his motherâs, and he ached for her all over again, for her gentleness, her inborn happiness, her bewilderment at peopleâs cruelty. He remembered her hiccuping laughter, and the timid way she sometimes tilted her head. His mother had been delicate, both in stature and nature, a wispy, slim-waisted woman with a puff of hair always spilling from under her scarf. He used to wonder how such a frail little body could house somuch joy, so much goodness. It couldnât. It spilled out of her, came pouring out her eyes. Father was different. Father had hardness in him. His eyes looked out on the same world as Motherâs had, and saw only indifference. Endless toil. Fatherâs world was unsparing. Nothing good came free. Even love. You paid for all things. And if you were poor, suffering was your currency. Abdullah looked down at the scabby parting in his little sisterâs hair, at her narrow wrist hanging over the side of the wagon, and he knew that in their motherâs dying, something of her had passed to Pari. Something of her cheerful devotion, her guilelessness, her unabashed hopefulness. Pari was the only person in the world who would never, could never, hurt him. Some days, Abdullah felt she was the only true family he had.
The dayâs colors slowly dissolved into gray, and the distant mountain peaks became opaque silhouettes of crouching giants. Earlier in the day, they had passed by several villages, most of them far-flung and dusty just like Shadbagh. Small square-shaped homes made of baked mud, sometimes raised into the side of a mountain and sometimes not, ribbons of smoke rising from their roofs. Wash lines, women squatting by cooking fires. A few poplar trees, a few chickens, a handful of cows and goats, and always a mosque. The last village they passed sat adjacent to a poppy field, where an old man working the pods waved at them. He shouted something Abdullah couldnât hear. Father waved back.
Pari said, âAbollah?â
âYes.â
âDo you think Shuja is sad?â
âI think heâs fine.â
âNo one will hurt him?â
âHeâs a big dog, Pari. He can defend himself.â
Shuja
was
a big dog. Father said he must have been a fighting dog at one point because someone had severed his ears and his tail. Whether he could, or would, defend himself was another matter. When the stray first turned up in Shadbagh, kids had hurled rocks at him, poked him with tree branches or rusted bicycle-wheel spokes. Shuja never fought back. With time, the villageâs kids grew tired of tormenting him and left him alone, though Shujaâs demeanor was still cautious, suspicious, as if heâd not forgotten their past unkindness toward him.
He avoided everyone in Shadbagh but Pari. It was for Pari that Shuja lost all composure. His love for her was vast and unclouded. She was his universe. In the mornings, when he saw Pari stepping out of the house, Shuja sprang up, and his entire body