these people coming around. Listen to all the sweet things theyâre saying about you . I remember saying to Nate that I hope she knew how many people thought she was the shit.
First was my neighbour on the right, Carrie Smith. Carrie was my age, and a grandmother twice over already. Sheâd had her eldest, Emma, at sixteen and Emma had her first at fifteen and her second a few months ago. The kids and grandkids and various partners and friends lived with Carrie sometimes and sometimes not. Hers was like a different house from week to week. One week thereâd be plastic scooters in the drive and blinding-white nappies flapping on the line and alternating baby cries and toddler giggles from inside, the next, red-eyed slurry teenagers slumped under a smoke haze, hip-hop blasting from stereos of cars parked but never turned off.
Carrie asked how I was and I said I was fine, and then she made tea and showed me pictures of her grandkids on her phone and asked if she could smoke inside and asked if I needed anything and asked if that was Nateâs car parked out front and asked, oh, I donât know, a bunch of things that had nothing to do with why she was fussing around my kitchen at nine on a Tuesday morning instead of down at the club flushing her pension down the pokies as usual.
Next was Lisa from across the street. Lisa was in her fifties, an accountant who dressed and spoke like a north coast hippie. She had a daughter Bellaâs age and a son a few years younger. When she swept through the front door her green, floor-length skirt got caught on the doorjamb and we both ignored the sound of it ripping as though it was a loud, wet fart. Lisa had brought me a loaf-shaped cake on a glass platter. She placed it in the centre of the kitchen table and then wrapped her scrawny, sun-leathered arms around me, pressing my head down into her shoulder.
âI didnât know what to do,â she told me when I had freed myself. âI called my friend Di â sheâs just the calmest person youâll ever meet and sheâs got the gift, you know, like second sight â and I asked her and she told me â listen, I know this sounds far out, Chris, I know that, but she said that people who die violently can have trouble finding peace and so you might ââ
âNot now.â Nate mustâve been listening from the bedroom. From the doorway he filled the kitchen. âChris doesnât need talk like that right now.â
Lisa stood, her face flushing pink, her hands fluttering up to the beads looped five or more times around her throat. âNate! Oh, itâs such a relief to see you, to know that Chris isnât on her own over here.â
âYou made this?â He bent to the cake, sniffed it. âOrange?â
âWith fruit picked from my tree this morning.â She returned to my side, patted my hand. âAnd just this once I said to hell with the toxins and put a nice full cup of white sugar in there for you. Situation called for it, I thought.â
âYou going to have some?â Nate asked, but she shook her head.
âIâll leave you to it.â
âThank you,â I think I said.
âOf course, and if you need anything . . .â She shot a look at Nate, who was busy cutting the cake. âOr if you want to talk to Di about ââ
âActually, there is something you could help with. Cops want Chris to speak at a press conference tomorrow and ââ
âOh, I donât know. Chris, honey, are you sure youâre up to it?â
âThey say itâll help,â I told her. âPeople more likely to come forward.â
âItâll help. And they said she can read from a prepared statement and theyâll deal with questions and all that,â Nate said. âSo what would be good is if you could help with writing something, âcause I donât have a clue, to be honest. It needs to just say stuff about
Rebecca Alexander, Sascha Alper