dear, what can I say? I
forgot. How dreadful of me. Are you sure it’s too late?’
‘Yes, I’m afraid so. I’d arranged to meet my boyfriend at
seven.’
‘You should have rung me. On my mobile.’
‘I did try.’
Yes, and of course she had switched it off, for the Savoy.
She looked at Caroline rather helplessly. ‘Well, look, you
must have - oh, dear, not this weekend off, we’ve got
people over from the States. Maybe next—’
“The next one would be nice, Mrs Fleming. As actually
we did agree - perhaps you’ve forgotten.’ Her voice was
polite, but her expression was very hard. ‘I’ve arranged to
go away, and—’
‘No, of course I haven’t forgotten,’ said Octavia quickly.
Caroline was supposed to have three weekends a month
off; lately it had dwindled to more like the other way
round. She was quite good natured beneath her daunting
manner, and she was very fond of all three children, Minty
in particular, but reneging on what was, after all, a written
contract, clearly made her angry. She did not smile now at
Octavia, merely turned towards the door.
Octavia, reading her body language, sensing danger (for
she had seen four nannies off already in her eight years of
motherhood), said, ‘No, of course you must have that
weekend. Why don’t you take the Monday as well, make it
a really long one? Friday would be more difficult, we’ve got
some do, I think, but—’
‘Oh, that would be marvellous, Mrs Fleming. Thank
you. If you can manage it …”
‘Yes, of course I can. We certainly owe it to you. And
Caroline, I’m sorry about this evening. Again.’
“Thank you, Mrs Fleming. Right, well, I think I’ll go up to my room now, I’m very tired. Oh, by the way, your father phoned. No message, but he’ll ring again.’
He certainly will, thought Octavia; she might leave the
answering machine to deal with him. ‘Fine,’ she said, ‘thank
you.’
Caroline turned and ran up the stairs. Octavia watched
her, thinking distractedly what good legs she had, how
pretty she was altogether, tall, fair haired, athletic looking,
wondering why she had chosen to be a nanny of all things.
Her father was a prosperous solicitor and she’d gone to a good school; she had A-levels, she could have done’ anything, anything at all, and yet she’d opted to take care of other people’s children. Very odd: even if the reward (Ł200 a week clear, own flat, sole use of car) were so good No status, no freedom… Well, better not waste time
meditating on that one, thought Octavia, pouring boiling
water on to her peppermint teabag - she could save on a lot of calories if she cut out supper — and went back to the playroom, concentrating her thoughts and the necessary
willpower on her children. They deserved some of her,
quite a lot of her; they really didn’t get enough.
The twins had wearied of their video and were engaged in
their favourite occupation of arguing. People who disapproved
of Octavia — or who, more precisely, were envious
of her, resented her success, her charmed life, her gilded
lifestyle — often said it was irritatingly predictable that she
would have had twins, would have instantly acquired a
family, rather than just a child, would have got pregnancy
and breastfeeding and postnatal exhaustion and the inevitable
career break over and done with all at once. No
wondering when or indeed whether to embark on the next
pregnancy for Octavia; there it was, her family (and even a
boy and a girl, for heaven’s sake), readymade, with the least
possible inconvenience not only to herself but her colleagues
and her clients as well.
Octavia herself, delighted by the charm, the distinction
of twins, was at first unaware of the professional benefits
they brought her, and was surprised and hurt the first time
she heard these expressed by an outside source; later on, she
was amused — and faintly shocked — to find herself
recognising its wisdom.
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