beautiful, tiny sprite with long, shiny dark brown hair. They turned when they heard the echo of the closing door and motioned to me to come and sit with them. As soon as I sat down in the pew next to Carrie, Suzanne leaned over her to whisper to me.
âSee that guy playing the organ?â
I looked around over my shoulder in perfect synchronization with Carrie and Suzanne. We mustâve looked like the Snoop Sisters.
âHe used to date Kathy.â
âReally?â I said.
âHe was crazy about her,â Carrie said.
âAnd she was crazy about him,â Suzanne said. âHeâs a tree hugger.â
I looked at him and thought he seemed like a nice enough guy. His blond hair was sort of long in the front and I liked his shirt. What was the matter with being a tree hugger?
âWhatâs his name?â I said.
âPaul somethingâÂsounds like Glider,â Suzanne said.
The serÂvice began then with the priest appearing on the altar preceded by an altar server who lit some candles. A large man in a dark suit, presumably from the funeral home, slowly and with great solemnity pushed a rolling cart, a tiny bier, up the aisle to the front of the church. On it stood a box covered in a beautiful lace-Âtrimmed cloth and a single ivory-Âcolored candle pressed into a heavy brass candlestick. In that box were the ashes of Kathryn Gordon Harper. The altar server came down from the raised altar and lit the candle. The gentleman from the funeral home turned quietly and walked back down the aisle, taking a seat in the rear of the church.
Suzanne, Carrie, and I looked at each other with startled expressions, each of us on the verge of tears with a similar question on our minds. How, exactly how, did Kathyâs entire life fit into that tiny little box? Just then, as though he wanted to divert our attention, Paul the tree-Âhugger organist began playing âMy Favorite Thingsâ for a moment or two and then broke into a wild and rollicking rendition of âWhen the Saints Go Marching In.â You would have thought we were in the French Quarter of New Orleans at a Cajun funeral. I felt a sudden piercing urge to get up and dance in the aisle. It wasnât until we were all smiling, and the priest had cleared his throat loudly several times and made some terrible faces and hand gestures indicating his displeasure, that Paul let the music die out. And he didnât stop playing all at once. He slowed down, dropped his left hand, slowly played a few notes with his right hand, and then let the final notes fade away entirely, without finishing the verse.
Clearly, Paul the tree-Âhugging organist was insulted. We could hear his shoes click across the floor. He took a seat in the pew right behind us.
âI was ready to join in,â Suzanne said.
âMe too,â I said, and looked at Carrie, who bobbed her head in agreement.
Paul leaned forward and whispered to us. Loudly.
âShe loved that music,â he said. âThat priest is a stuffy old man.â
Suzanne turned around and said to him, âYouâre right.â
Then, sensing that wasnât enough to repair his embarrassment, Carrie turned and said, âKathy wouldâve loved your selections.â
I turned to see him blush and smile and it appeared that the sting had been soothed. But in my peripheral vision I saw Suzanne roll her eyes, which seemed a little snide. I didnât know if I agreed with her position or not. Suzanne didnât suffer fools well and this Paul fellow was obviously a sensitive man. I didnât have to agree with Carrie and Suzanne on everything to be on good terms with them. Being a medical professional and one who had spent a great deal of time seeing to Kathrynâs comfort gave me a space where I could hold my own opinions. Personally? In my experience, sensitive men were an unusual and beautiful thing. Unfortunately, they often played for the other