of course, Iâd headed right up there. Iâd bowled CJ over, literally, as I hustled out of a building I wasnât supposed to be in. The security guys had been hot on my heels as I exited, right into CJâs arms. Heâd even lied to the MAsâthe masters-at-arms, or navy policeâsaying that I was waiting for him and that he was late. The memory made me smile.
âI had dinner with your folks last night.â
My folks? That wiped the smile off my face. I loved my parents, but since the fall theyâd increased their pressure on me to move home. Iâd spent Christmas with them, and much of the holiday had been them probing into why I was staying in Ellington. I loved it here, although the warm weather and the stunning coastal scenery of Pacific Grove tempted me.
But I didnât want to go back as a failure. If anything, Monterey was more expensive than this area, and there was little possibility of finding a place I could afford on my own. Iâd checked the classifieds there after CJ and I first split. It had helped to make my decision to live here easier. Plus, my parents hated garage sales, because they thought if you didnât want something, you should give it away. Which was fine and dandy if you had lots of money, but many people needed the money, and I liked to help them make it.
âAre you there?â CJ asked.
âYes. Iâm just . . . surprised.â Surprised didnât begin to describe my feelings. My mother had been dead set against us getting married so young. My father hadnât been happy about the idea either, but at least he hadnât vocalized those feelings and instead had bent over backward to welcome CJ to the family. Even after CJ and I were married for nineteen years, my mother had continued to be a bit reserved with him. At least sheâd managed not to say âI told you soâ to me over Christmas. I wondered if sheâd said it to CJ. I was flummoxed that sheâd invited him over for dinner, now that we were divorced. Maybe she was trying to get him to tell me to move back to California.
âHow did it go?â I asked, not sure I actually wanted to know the answer.
âNo blood was shed, if thatâs what youâre worried about.â
âI wasnât too worried about bloodshed with my pacifist parents.â âAging hippiesâ was a better way to describe them. Me marrying a military man went pretty much against everything Iâd been raised to believe. But over time, as CJ won them over, theyâd mellowed a bit. âBut they are opinionated, to say the least, and the fact that you hurt their only daughter . . .â
âThey asked where we stood.â
âWhat did you tell them?â I wasnât sure I wanted to know this, either.
âThat theyâd have to ask you.â
Ask me? The last couple of times Iâd reached out to him, heâd been all business. It sure felt like heâd reached a decision all on his own, even if I hadnât. Not that Iâd blame him if he was tired of waiting around for me to figure my life out. I heard a woman in the background call to CJ.
âIâve got to go,â he said.
âWhen will you be back?â But CJ had already hung up.
Thinking of CJ with another woman upset me more than I wanted to admit. I crawled back through the small door to the storage space to finish putting my purchases away. A box in back of the things Iâd accumulated for the February Blues sale caught my attention. I dragged it out from under the eaves and realized this unopened box was one from when CJ and I split up. So much for not thinking about CJ. I pulled off the packing tape and found a box full of CJâs sports stuff. A baseball bat, a basketball, and an old pair of cleats, apparently nothing he valued or things he thought were lost. I took out the baseball bat, hefting it in my hand. I went to my bedroom and stuck it under my bed as I