grandpaâsâfine. If it werenât so early, I know heâd love to talk to you.â
âOkay, well give him a big kiss from me.â
âI will, dear.â
âAnd Ma . . . ?â
âYes, dear.â
âI love Toulouse, and teaching kids, andâwellâjust being out in the world on my own. But I really miss you guys. I hope that doesnât sound too mushy?â
âDarling, we miss you too. So mush away. Iâll take all I can get.â
âRight on, Ma. And speaking of getting  . . .â
âYes?â
Jennifer chuckled. âWellâare you gettingâ?â
â Jennifer! For heavenâs sake.â
âJust kidding! But what I really mean . . . Look, Iâm fine; seeing Europe and having a really cool time. And I guess Grandpaâs okay too, what with the house and his precious land . . . By the way, is he still fretting about those takeover people?â
Recalling the latest incident, Mattie felt a chill. âYesâoff and on.â
âWell, itâs something to occupy him, I guess. But, Ma, itâs you Iâve been worried about.â
âMe?â
âWellâjust having school, and Brian beingâyou know, like goneâand living in the middle of nowhere . . . it must be kinda lonely.â
âSweetie, this is not the middle of nowhere. Youâre suddenly this world traveler, so I understand how it might seem that way. But the Cowichan Valley is the most beautiful place in the world; I wouldnât live anywhere else. As for being lonelyâI just wish I had time . Dear, itâs sweet of you to worry, but Iâm not pining away, believe me.â
Jennifer laughed. âOkay, Mum, I get it!
They continued to talk of lighter matters for a while. Then Jennifer said that her phone card was running out, so they said goodbye and broke the connection.
It was now bright day with the robins in full blast. Mattie lay back, feeling the residue of Jenniferâs phone presence like a sweet balm. This would fade all too soon, so she was determined to enjoy it as long as possible. However, there was no longer any question of trying to sleep. She got out of bed, donned her raggedy old robe, and headed for the kitchen.
Exiting the master bedroomâwhich sheâd now occupied alone for twelve yearsâMattie moved past Jenniferâs room. Next came the closed door of the room that had been Brianâs; for once the dull ache, always just below the threshold of attention, did not intensify. This morning, her full concentration was on the room at the far end of the hallâFitzâs room.
The house was over a century old, built as a colonial statement in a then-young province. Huge and solid, a West Coast echo of Arts and Crafts design, it was made of timbers the like of which, even in this wooded world, had not been seen in decades. The floor boards gave not the smallest creak, which was good, since she didnât want to wake her father-in-law; the last thing she could handle now was a confrontation.
Reaching his open door, she saw that she neednât have worried. Fitz was lying fully clothed on the bed: eyes closed, head thrown back, mouth agape, as if about to give birth to a giant snore, which never came. Though the old manâs chest slowly rose and fell, he was as silent as the dead.
Stupid, stupid! a voice muttered in her head. I wish you WERE damn dead . . . Which, of course, she didnât mean and had to cancel, even as a peevish thought: there had been too much death associated with this family already. What she had to do was regard the nocturnal near-disaster as a warning and bless the blind luck that had allowed her to survive it.
Last night, after sheâd recovered, calmed the drunk old coot and got him to bed, sheâd taken the shotgunâwhich sheâd not known existed till she was staring down