her the car keys. Didnât she know how good she had it?
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I loved the art room. I loved the smell of paint and turpentine and paper. I felt at home there, where every surface of every wall was covered in student art.
Mr. Stewart didnât have a class until second period, so I knew heâd be alone that morning. He stopped rummaging in his supply cabinet when he heard me come in.
âHey, Tera.â He studied my face. Cautious. âWhatâs on your mind?â
âYou left yesterday without taking anything for the magazine.â I held up my painting. âSo I brought you Gray Day. It was all I could carry on the bus.â
âOh.â He took a long time closing the supply cabinet door. âAbout that.â
âYou donât like it?â
âYou know I do. Itâs one of my favorites. Itâs just . . .â He took the painting and propped it against the wall. âI donât know if the article will see print.â
Iâd been looking forward to that article for months. When they interviewed me, I felt like a real artist, someone with a future. Disappointment stabbed me in the gut. âWhy not?â I asked.
âWell, because . . .â He frowned.
âBecause of what happened with my dad? The whole thing was a mistake.â
âThat may be, but itâs about perceptions. I doubt the editor would take the risk.â
âBut thatâs not fair!â
âIt might be that sheâll postpone the article, just until this thing with your dad gets cleared up.â
âBut did you talk to her? The editor? How would she even know?â
He scratched his neck. âI thought it best she know all the facts about what sheâs getting into.â
I tasted anger. Like biting down on foil. âThe facts? There are no facts. My dad didnât do anything.â
âI just . . . The editorâs my friend, Tera. I canât let her publish something that might hurt her magazine.â
âBut thatâs stupid! Itâs not going to hurt her magazine!â
âWell, youâre probably right, but itâs her decision. If, like you say, it gets cleared up, we can call her. Iâll call her. Tell her it was a mistake. Then Iâm sure sheâll go ahead with the article.â
I lowered my head and clenched my teeth, trying to bite back anger. I couldnât be angry. I still needed his help.
âDoes that sound fair, Tera?â
I nodded, swallowed, lifted my chin. âI need to talk to you about something.â
âOkay.â Again that caution.
âYou asked me yesterday if I needed anything.â
He nodded.
âAnd I need you to go to a bail bondsman. For my dad. You have to be eighteen or Iâd do it myself. But I have money to pay his feeâall the money for my apartment in France. And then, once this is cleared up, itâll be like nothing happened. No trouble to you except going to the bail bondsman.â
Already, he was shaking his head. âTera, Iâm sorry. You know I canât do that.â
âBut itâs really easy. Iâll give you the money. The woman on the phone saidââ
âNot because of the money, or because itâs too difficult. I canât get involved in this. Itâs not . . .â His eyes searched the room like he was looking for the right word. âAppropriate.â
Something came between us then, sliding down and rattling shut. We werenât friends. We werenât mentor and favorite student. We werenât anything.
Heat pulsed from my cheeks. âI shouldnât have asked.â
âIâm glad you trust me enough toââ
âI have to go. Iâll be late.â
He didnât try to stop me.
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I spent most school lunch periods holed up in the girlsâ restroom on the second floor. I liked the quiet, the emptiness. I liked how no one could see me eating