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the horizon, and she looked up into my face like an opening flower, and when my lips touched hers she came against me and I felt the heat in her suntanned body and suddenly realized that I’d never had any idea of what a kiss could be. She opened and closed her mouth, slowly at first, then wider, changing the angle, her chin lifting, her lips dry and smooth, her face confident and serene and loving. When she let her hands slide down on my chest and rested her head against mine, I could hardly swallow, and the fireflies spun webs of red light in the black-green tangle of oak limbs overhead, and the sky from horizon to horizon was filled with the roar of cicadas.
    I stopped eating and walked around behind her chair, leaned down and kissed her on the mouth.
    â€œMy, what kind of thoughts have you been having this morning?” she said.
    â€œYou’re the best, Boots,” I said.
    She looked up at me, and her eyes were kind and soft, and I touched her hair and cheek with my fingers.
    Then she looked out the window toward the front road.
    â€œWho’s that?” she said.
    A silver Cadillac with television and CB antennas and windows that were tinted almost black turned off the dirt road by the bayou and parked next to my pickup truck under the pecan trees. The driver cut the engine and stepped out into the yard, dressed in a suit that was silver-charcoal,a blue shirt with French cuffs, a striped red-and-blue necktie, and wrap-around black sunglasses. He pulled off his sunglasses gingerly with his right hand, which had only a carved, half-moon area where the two bottom fingers should have been, widened his eyes to let them adjust to the light, and walked over the layer of leaves and pecan husks toward the gallery. His black shoes were shined so brightly they could have been patent leather.
    â€œIs that—” Bootsie began.
    â€œYeah, it’s Lyle Sonnier. He shouldn’t have come out here.”
    â€œMaybe he tried at the office and they told him you were home.”
    â€œIt doesn’t matter. He should have arranged to meet me at the office.”
    â€œI didn’t know you felt that way about him.”
    â€œHe takes advantage of poor and uneducated people, Boots. He used the Ethiopian famine to raise money for that television sideshow of his. Look at the car he drives.”
    â€œShhhh, he’s on the gallery,” she whispered.
    â€œI’ll talk to him outside. There’s no need to invite him in. Okay, Boots?”
    She shrugged and said, “Whatever you say. I think you’re being a little too hard.”
    Lyle grinned through the screen when he saw me walking toward the door. He had the same dark Cajun complexion as the other Sonniers, but Lyle had always been the thin one, narrow at the shoulders and hips, a born track runner or poolroom lizard and ultimately one of the mostfearless grunts I knew in Vietnam. Except Vietnam and pajama-clad little men who hid in tunnels and spider holes were twenty-five years back down the road.
    â€œWhat’s happenin’, Loot?” he said.
    â€œHow are you, Lyle?” I said, and shook hands with him out on the gallery. His mutilated hand felt light and thin and unnatural in mine. “I have to feed the rabbits and my daughter’s horse before I go back to work. Do you mind walking with me while we talk?”
    â€œSure. Bootsie isn’t home?” He looked toward the screen. On the right side of his face was a shower of shrapnel scars like a chain of flesh-toned plastic teardrops.
    â€œShe’ll be out directly. What’s up, Lyle?” I walked toward the rabbit hutches under the trees so he would have to follow me.
    He didn’t speak for a while. Instead he combed his waxed brown conked hair in the shade and looked out toward my dock and the cypress swamp on the far side of the bayou. Then he put his comb in his shirt pocket.
    â€œYou don’t approve of me, do you?” he said.
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