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Maybe
it was embedded into her brain, or her heart. She had let the man
she loved walk out the door and it was all Daves fault. He had
never felt so low, so helpless. He had ruined his family and now
there was nothing he could do about it. He leaned over and hugged
his mum, gave her a kiss on the cheek and in a soft whisper with
tears in his eyes he said “I love you mum, I’m sorry I ruined your
life” Then he walked slowly to his bedroom and cried himself to
sleep.
     

Chapter 4
     
    Margaret, Dave’s mum, didn’t
know it at the time, but choosing Dave over her husband would
become the worst decision of her life.
     
    The morning after “that night”
when Dave had come home he had shown remorse, he had been upset and
guilty about what he had done. That didn’t last, it didn’t take
long for Dave to forget about that night and what he had done. It
seemed like he had forgotten about his father as well, or just
didn’t care that he wasn’t there anymore.
     
    Dave had very frequent mood
swings, every month or so he would be so full of anger that he
would storm around the house trashing anything in his path, his mum
was terrified of him, she was so scared that when he threw these
fits of violence she would go and hide in her bedroom.
     
    Years had passed now and it was
still Just Margaret and Dave living together. They didn’t live in
the same house anymore, they no longer had their family home, they
had to move to a far smaller house, in a not so very nice area.
Dave of course blamed his mum for this, it was her fault that they
couldn’t afford to live in their old house. The fact was, she
genuinely couldn’t afford to keep that house anymore, her sole
income wasn’t enough to keep up with all the bills and Dave had
never bothered getting a job, he left it all to his mum.
     
    The house they lived in now was
very small, the living room was always very dark. The reason for
this was that only Dave occupied the living room.
     
    Margaret always felt tense
around him and she couldn’t bare the sight of him. He had ruined
her life. Margaret was miserable every single day, she couldn’t
count the amount of times she had thought about taking her life.
She never had any money left after taking care of all the bills, so
outside work, she never left the house. She had no friends, no one
she could talk to about how her day was or how she was feeling.
Sure Dave was there but it was a waste of time trying to talk to
him, he would either ignore her or start insulting her and shouting
at her for disturbing him. Every day she thought about tying her
bed sheet around the foot of her bed, then at the other end making
a noose and putting it around her neck, every day she thought about
this, then she thought if she just ran and jumped head first out of
the window that the sheet would snap her neck. It would be quick,
hopefully be painless and fast for her and then over. But she
couldn’t do it. Not because she was afraid of death, she wasn’t,
she would welcome death right now with open arms if he came
knocking. But she couldn’t take her own life and leave her son
alone. She hated herself for still loving him, she wished that she
didn’t so she could just end it all and leave him to rot in that
living room. A mothers love is too strong, even now that she wanted
to get rid of it she couldn’t, she knew that somewhere deep down
inside Dave still loved her too.
     
    Maybe that was the hope she was
clinging onto. Maybe one day she would wake up and Dave would love
his mum again, maybe he would be nice to her and caring, maybe he
would be her son again, maybe, just maybe.
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     

Chapter 5
     
    It was Friday night, a night
when most people like to relax, let their hair down, maybe have a
little drink and eat some greasy food that tastes just that little
bit nicer because they know it’s bad for them. Friday night is when
the majority of people know that the