her stomach, whatever it was,â said the medic. He looked at the body on the canvas. âJesus, she was a pretty girl. What a way to go.â Helooked at me. âLooks to me like she drove down here trying to get help. Too bad nobody was home. Or were you?â
He was a big guy and he looked tired and angry.
âIâm sorry I wasnât,â I said.
âWhyâd she come looking for you?â he asked. âWhy did she think youâd be the one to help her?â
âI think it was just the first driveway she came to,â I said, carefully. I realized that my right hand had become a fist, and I opened it into a hand again.
Miles turned to Tony DâAgostine. âWe found this stuff in her pockets.â He handed Tony a driverâs license, a college ID, and some mail. âNameâs Katherine Ellis. Lived in New Jersey. College kid. NYU.â He gave me a last look, then bent to the stretcher. âOkay, letâs go.â He and the other medics picked Katherine Ellis up and put her in the ambulance and drove away.
âMiles is not a bad guy,â said Tony DâAgostine. âItâs just that heâs got a daughter not much older, and sheâs hanging around with a guy he doesnât like. I think he just transferred all that to you.â
Transferred. Everybodyâs a psychologist. âItâs okay,â I said.
Tony leafed through Katherineâs mail. âLooks like she just came from the post office. Letter, postcard. Now Iâve got to find out where sheâs been living, then contact her folks and give them the news. People think cops chase bad guys all the time, but this is what we really do. I hate this part of it. Enough to make you hang up the tin.â
âIâm surprised youâre on duty. I thought you old pros were careful not to work the day shift.â
âIâm herding our summer people till they get the hang of things.â He looked around one more time. âWell, Iâd better get going. I have to make some phone calls.â
We walked down to my house. âIâll have that moped picked up,â he said, and he drove away.
Across Sengekontacket Pond there were still a few cars parked beside the road. Their owners were salvaging the last of the evening sun, unaware that a half mile away a young woman had died miserably beside my driveway.
I felt invaded, somehow. Young women didnât die beside my driveway. I knew they died somewhere, but they did it someplace else. They fell off their mopeds on the highways or drove their cars into faraway trees or lost themselves in the city. But they didnât die two hundred feet from my house.
I went inside and fixed myself a vodka on the rocks. I put my tape of Carreras, Domingo, and Pavarotti into my machine and listened to Carreras sing âFedericoâs Lament.â I donât understand Italian, but the lament sounded like what I was feeling. Then the other voices sang and after a while my self-pity was carried away and buried in that place where music sets us free.
That evening I phoned Zee and told her about Katherine Ellis. A half hour later her little Jeep pulled into my yard, and she stepped out, carrying an overnight case. It felt good to see her.
The next day, after Zee went to work, a pickup came down my driveway. It stopped in my yard where it could turn around. I was weeding in the garden. I went out to meet it. There was a young couple in the cab. The woman looked about Katherine Ellisâs age and was red-eyed. The man was a year or two older. His face was strained, and he seemed ill at ease, as people often are in the aftermath of death.
âYou must be Mr. Jackson,â said the woman, rollingdown her window. âThe police told me your name. Iâm Beth Goodwin. Iâm . . . was Kathyâs roommate. This is Peter Dennison. Heâs . . . a friend.â
âKathyâs friend, too,â