talked, Billy scrunched up his forehead like he was thinking about something.
âWhat?â I asked.
âDo you think you could teach me to dance?â Billy asked.
I laughed. We both know heâs a terrible dancer. âI donât know if thatâs possible.â
Billy smiled into the phone. âI have moves that might surprise you, April.â
âI hope I see them one day,â I said.
Billy was still smiling as I hung up. He was teasing me like he used to when we went out.
A good sign, I think.
Friday, January 10, 10:04 p.m.
Text from Sophie
Sophie: How are the newlyweds?
Me: IDK
Sophie: For real?
Me: Fine. I guess.
Me: Havenât seen them.
Sophie: Donât want to know why!
Me: Ewww!
Sophie: Ha ha! How are you?
Sophie: And Billy? Or Matt?
Sophie: Which is it?!?
I was trying to decide what to write back, and I couldnât. I didnât know how I wanted to answer the question. Ever since I walked to school with Matt, Iâve been thinking about him and why he asked me to come to one of his baseball games. But Iâve been thinking about Billy too. It was just like old times when he FaceTimed me, and it was fun. Is it even possible to like two guys at the same time? I literally started six different texts to Sophie and kept erasing what Iâd written. Before I sent anything, Sophie texted me back.
Sophie: DWBH
Me: BFN
The second I pushed send, I regretted it. Iâd wanted to write something that sounded as cool and effortless as âDonât worry, be happy,â but âBye for nowâdefinitely fell short. I feel like such an idiot. Not just because this was the first time Sophie and I have texted and I sounded like an idiot, but because Iâm thirteen, almost fourteen, and I canât even decide which boy I like.
It canât be normal to be that confused.
Can it?
Get your facts first, then you can distort them as much as you please.
âMark Twain
Monday, January 13, 6:45 p.m.
On the couch
Today the dance team went to the Faraway Community Center and Ms. Baumann paired us up with the girls weâre supposed to mentor. When we first got there, the girls were all over the place with their books, phones, and snacks. They were talking and laughing and definitely not what Ms. Baumann calls âdance ready.â But it didnât take her long to get everyone in order. She was pairing girls with dancers faster than most people brush their teeth. When she brought a tiny ten-year-old girl over to me and introduced her as Desiree, I thought the girl might be scared or shy. She had to be smaller than June, who is only seven.
I gave her my best itâs-going-to-be-okay smile. âIâm April,â I said.
âYou can call me Des.â She put one hand on her hip and grinned. It was clear Des might be small, but her personality wasnât.
I sat down next to Des when Ms. Baumann started to talk. She told the girls we would be working with them for the next six weeks to help them prepare for a dance show theyâll put on for the community. When she finished explaining the details, Ms. Baumann asked everyone to form three lines so we could begin rehearsal.
âThere are two things you need to know before we start,â Des said as we walked to a spot in the back line. I raised an eyebrow. She continued. âNumber one: I love to talk.â
Ms. Baumann clapped her hands. âGirls, take your places.â
I put my fingers to my lips. Des bit hers to show she got that when Ms. Baumann is talking, no one else should be. Ms. Baumann explained a plié and then demonstrated how to do one. âNow itâs your turn,â she said.
Des just stood there. Her hand was back on her hip. I couldnât figure out what she was waiting for. âSo whatâs the second thing?â
Des grinned like she was glad Iâd asked. âI hate to dance.â
Tuesday, January 14
Study Hall
This morning at assembly, Billy
Yvette Hines, Monique Lamont