least bit afraid or apologetic. They acted as if they belonged, as if this was their city as well as the peopleâs.
And the people, they did not even seem to notice the pigeons. Palmer kept tugging at his parents: âLook, thereâs one!â¦Look at that one!â But the city people ignored them. No one had a shotgun.
Except for the wounded pigeon that was wrung in front of him when he was four, this was Palmerâs first close look at the birds. He had heard that pigeons were dirty, filthy, nothing more than rats with wings. He looked and looked, but all he saw were plump, pretty birds with shiny coats. He was especially fascinated by how they moved. They did not hop, like sparrows or robins, but they walked , one pink foot in front of the other, just like people. With each step the head gave a nod, as if to say, Yes, I will. I agree. Youâre right. As Palmer saw it, the pigeon was a most agreeable bird.
They were passing through a park with many trees and benches when Palmer saw something that stopped him in his tracks. A man sitting on a bench was smothered in pigeons. They were on his shoulders, his head, his lap, snapping up seeds that the man appeared to have poured over himself. The pigeons were cooing and the man was gigglingâor was the man cooing and the pigeons giggling? It was hard to tell.
Back home, it occurred to Palmer that since he now could read quite well, he should have another look at the inscription on the golden pigeon statue in the den. It said:
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Sharpshooter Award
Pigeon Day
1989
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There, standing before the golden pigeon, the odor of gunsmoke came to him, and he understood that his father was a shooter.
It was about then that Palmer began to feel a certain tilt to his life. Time became a sliding board, at the bottom of which awaited his tenth birthday.
Beans kept asking, âYou gonna be a wringer?â
Every time, Palmer would look straight into that crayon box of teeth and say, âSure thing.â And every time he said it he could feel his heart thump. For among all the changes in his life, onething stayed the same. It was something he had known since his second Pigeon Day, when he sat with Dorothy Gruzik on the swings: He did not want to be a wringer.
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Cotton candy days, Ferris wheel nights. Family Fest was almost better than Christmasâand longer. What had been the American Legion baseball field last week was this week a wonderland. Ten times over Palmer explored every ride, every food stand, every amusement booth. He loved the boiling fatâs crackling hiss that cooked his fries and funnel cakes. He loved the yelp and splash when a ball hit the mark at the Dunk-A-Kid booth, the pop of darted balloons, the St. Bernard-size grand prizes, Tilt-A-Whirlâs woozy flight, neon lights like bottled fireworks, House of Horrors and Pretzel Man and chocolate bananas on a stick.
But in this year of Palmerâs life not even Family Fest was pure and easy fun. Despite the gleeful shouting and merry-go-round music, he could not forget the soccer field at the far end of the park: silent, waiting. At times the Ferris wheel seemed to be winching minutes, hauling him ever closer to Saturday and the boom and smell of gunsmoke.
He tried to avoid the guys, but it wasnât as easy as before. After The Treatment they had been showing him a newfound respect, and often they came looking for him. He began leaving his house by the back door. He kept his eyes peeled at the Fest.
Dorothy showed him no respect at all. He could have had a hundred Treatments and it would not have impressed her. And yet Palmer forgave her. He reminded himself that she was young and a girl and did not understand life beyond her hopscotch squares. Also, there was the memory of his second Pigeon Day shared with Dorothy. As the week raced toward Saturday, he began to feel closer to her. But when he saw Dorothyâs face flashing in the neon lights and called her name, she only