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become plastic. I think it's acceptable or 'cool'. I lie to everyone, especially the teachers. I backstab, as well. I'm not the prettiest girl in my class. I have those ugly, crooked teeth; and the fluffy, messy hair (not in a cute way). I am also chubby. I'm never satisfied with my figure.
    Of course, as I got older, I become taller, prettier, and curvier. Not only my appearance changes, but also my personality definitely changes.
    People say that beauty comes from within.
    Coming back to the main topic, I am on my Winter break. I'm so excited for all of us to enjoy the holidays together. It's hard to believe that I'll be spending Christmas with Rhiannon and Grady.
    It's the holidays, I know, and everybody spends the holidays with their family. However, this Christmas, my parents wants to visit the Virgin Islands. They are also cruising to the Virgin Islands. It's the beach! Who vacations in the beach during the winter?
    As for Ivy, she says that she will be going to Aspen with her husband, Michael.
    My family is the last thing on my mind to worry. I'm a more worried about if Nathan will tag along with us during the holidays. I'm not trying to be a pessimist. However, I don't want to remain stuck in the past. Moving forward and seeing new possibilities is a new change for me!
     
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    To everyone, I know it's very strange, but I love to wear short shorts during every season of the year. I don't care if it's cold outside; I still choose to wear shorts, or boxer shorts. Of course, I can't find a warm jacket for my upper body, so I decide to steal a jacket from Nathan.
    Sure, his jacket is a bit huge on me, but it's the only thing I saw available. I'm positive he won't mind. Besides, it smells like him - his vanilla soap mixed with his peppermint cologne.
    It's not like he would notice! He's not even in the house! He's probably gone to who-knows-where! Yet, why did he leave his stuff here? Hmm, I'm guessing he will come back and get it when he found a new place to stay.
    Yeah, Inna, that's correct.
    I smile to myself as I quickly rush into my room, grab my mp3 player and my iPod Touch, and place it into the living room. Again, I'm the only person inside the apartment, so I don't mind to jam with the music while cleaning.
    Rhiannon and I negotiate about her and Grady working on their jobs, as I stay at the apartment, cleaning. I'm a very organized person. I somehow adore cleaning. Sometimes, I clean when I'm anxious or angry, but that's hardly happening in my life.
    Yes, we have to pay for the bills. My parents already paid the first quarter. I still cannot believe that they agreed with me staying with my best friends. I know how strict they are, but they went lenient because I'm an adult. As an adult, I stand up to make the decisions.
     
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    As I turn on the satellite radio from an app on my iPod, the song Shout 2000 by Disturbed plays. I crank up the volume as high, but not very loud, so I can disrupt the neighbors. Rhiannon has done it before. I remember Rhiannon was yelling at Grady about some pointless reason. It is crazy, living with those two under the same roof.
    They aren't your perfect, adorable couple. There are times when they get all 'lovey-dovey' and everything is centered. There are times when they get rowdy and act like crazy loons. There are other times when they get into an argument, such as married couples, or divorced couples; however, they forgive each other in the end.
    As the song continues, I take the remote and use it as a microphone while I start dusting the furniture. "I really love to shout! Shout! Let it all out! These are the things I can do without, come on. I'm talking to you, so come on! Shout! Shout! Let it all out!" I sing as I raise my fist in the air, while I continue to move with the beat.
    "In violent times, you shouldn't have to sell your soul! In black and white, they really, really ought to know..." I continue on singing while I start dancing to the beat. Yes, I used