of being reliable, boring, a good girl.”
“So what’s the answer? You don’t want to work anymore?” he asked.
She held up her hands. “Oh no, that’s not what I’m saying. I love my teaching job. My kids are my life, and I couldn’t leave them. I’m not tired of work, just my sex life. Everyone at home knows me. Knows I’m…”
“Sweet?” Sawyer supplied the word too quickly and she tried not to groan at his assessment. If one more person called her sweet tonight, she’d scream.
“Apparently, that trait tends to attract men who are looking for a mommy figure. I take care of kids all day. I can’t come home at night and do more of the same.”
She closed her eyes and tried to erase the image of her last three short-term boyfriends. Men content to let her decide where they would go for dinner, to lead the conversations, even to be the aggressor in bed. It was like they were afraid to touch her lest they offend her delicate disposition. Ugh.
“I’m still waiting for the BDSM explanation,” Sawyer prompted.
She swallowed, and then decided a half truth was as good as a whole. “My college roommate, Stacey, called a few months ago to tell me about her new boyfriend. She was the girl you met downstairs.”
Sawyer nodded, but didn’t interrupt.
“She told me about Bill, about how he’s a Dom. She talked about their sex life a little bit, and I realized she was describing my fantasies.”
Sawyer grasped her hand. “You want someone else to take the reins in the bedroom.”
She nodded. “Yes.”
“Only in bed?”
Leah wondered if this would be a sticking point with Sawyer, then she decided that ultimately her answer didn’t matter. Even though they were both from the same hometown, it wasn’t like they saw each other often. Hell, Sawyer was away with the Coast Guard at least ninety-nine percent of the year.
This wasn’t a date. It was a one-night stand. “My personality is pretty much set in cement. There’s no way I can allow someone to manage my life outside of the bedroom.”
He grinned, and she sensed her answer pleased him somehow. “So I guess there’s only one question that remains.”
“What’s that?”
He grasped her hands and raised them. Holding them against the door by her head, he moved closer, trapping her lower body with his. She was completely at his mercy, and she loved it. She pressed her legs together in search of some sort of relief. She wasn’t sure she’d ever been this horny in her life. With one quick aggressive motion, Sawyer sent her body spinning into orbit.
He moved nearer—something she would have thought impossible given their proximity. He rested his forehead against hers. “Why haven’t you tried BDSM before?”
She shook her head. “I live in Compton Pass. Before tonight and with the exception of the exploits of you and your brothers, I would have called it the Vanilla Capital of the World.”
Sawyer chuckled. “Guess you’ve never caught any rumors about the hands on the ranch. You are a pleasant surprise, Leah.”
She snorted, the familiar teasing they used to indulge in returning. “Guess you should have been paying better attention in high school. Just think. I was right under your nose all those years, and you didn’t even realize I was a girl.”
He bent down, his hot breath teasing the sensitive skin of her cheek. “You’re wrong. I noticed you.”
She licked her suddenly dry lips as his tongue darted out to touch her throat lightly.
“Your heart’s racing,” he whispered.
She nodded once.
“Scared?”
She frowned. “No.”
“Nervous?”
Hell yeah. Unfortunately her pride was as strong as her curiosity. “No.”
He kissed her softly. “Liars get punished.”
She swallowed deeply, wondering if punishment would be such a bad thing if Sawyer was administering it. Then she decided not to test him…yet. “Maybe a little nervous.”
“Are you excited?”
Christ, that seemed to be an understatement