would he...” Merrick is shaking with fury now.
I run my hand up to his scratchy jaw and pull his face down to look at me.
“Merrick.” I forget about everyone else for a minute an focus on Merrick, who is so full of rage. More than I’ve ever seen him. “Baby, look at me. He knows you. Of you. He knows about all of us somehow. He knows about the bunker. He knows about all the people we have here. He wants Calvin and Lily too. He said we create the balance he needs to be complete? I don’t know what that means but... He didn’t hurt me, well not until the end, in fact he seemed jealous...of you. He said the only reason you’re here with me is because I’m a magnet for people to love and be loved and you couldn’t help yourself. That everyone is attracted to me and that’s why he needs me. He was just trying to push my buttons. I knew it was a dream for most of it... Don’t worry. He just wants what he doesn’t understand. That’s all.”
“He did hurt you,” Merrick said softly, rubbing my glowing shoulder.
“I’m fine. I’m fine,” I said it twice, once for him and once for me.
I was still shaking.
After we moved into the commons room, I finish telling them the whole dream beginning to end. Knowing I need to be truthful so we can figure this out I tell everything, even the extremely embarrassing seduction stuff. Merrick is fuming about that still and at the mention of the bedroom fantasy...let’s just say it was all I can do to keep him from dumping me on the floor and going Taker hunting.
Jeff even intervened once with a hand on his shoulder to calm him, and I’m sure some silent words were spoken.
Merrick has me still on his lap, wrapped in a blanket covering my cami and shorts. Jeff and Marissa throw ideas back and forth and everyone there speculates as to what it could mean.
Other ideas were also thrown out. Not welcomed ideas of when the last time I had touched Marissa had been. That was introduced by Kay. I quickly dispelled that notion as I hadn’t touched Marissa but even if I had, she wouldn’t do that to me. Again. In fact she’s adamant about helping us and talking and interacting with us lately more than ever.
Marissa guarantees us that it was real, he was there in my dream and yes, he could hurt me for real if he wanted to, but he won’t. She see’s that he won’t ever hurt me physically.
Well, that’s some relief.
Still, everyone seems to steer clear of Marissa. Like she’s got a bad case of the plague.
Marissa also see’s that the Taker knows so much about Merrick and I from Phillip. Because Phillip is now a Lighter. They took his body and he has been sharing his memories with the Taker. Luckily, usually the memories, per Merrick, are only bits and pieces and they shouldn’t be able to find us by just seeing them.
The news shocks me when she confesses that she already knew that Phillip was a Lighter and Merrick did too. I’m not mad though but they both look at me like I’m gonna tear their heads off.
“Why would I be mad that you didn’t tell me? I wouldn’t want to know that. I still don’t. That he died. That he suffered like that. I wouldn’t wish that on anyone, not even Phillip,” I say and mean it.
Maybe this explained what Phillip was talking about that day in my mind and how he was able to do it. Phillip was a lot of things but, no one deserved that end.
In the afternoon that day, I took up the job of cutting everyone’s hair. Mainly the massive quantity of guys we have acquired over time who were getting shaggier by the day and in desperate need of attention.
I had clippers in the bathroom, along with a chair and started with Merrick first. It was a shame. I was loving his shag. But, he insisted he was tired of it so I obliged and took an inch or two. No matter what you do, you just can’t ruin him. I’m pleasantly surprised when I’m finished to see the Merrick I met in the beginning.
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