not ready?â
âIâm not going,â Louisa said, using the remote to turn up the television.
âWhat do you mean youâre not going?â
Vicki stood and pushed back a lock of red hair as her green gaze met Dianaâs. âTime to make my grand exit.â
Diana watched her gather her things from the coffee table.
âGood luck,â Vicki whispered as she passed Diana.
Once she heard the front door close behind the nurse, Diana turned her attention to her grandmother. âPlease, letâs not fight over this today.â
Louisa shrugged. âWhoâs fighting?â
âAll right, then. Do you need me to help you get dressed?â
âNo.â She locked gazes with Diana. âI said I wasnât going.â
Diana stared. What else could she doâthrow a fit, hold her breath until she passed out?
Louisa smiled again. âOh, stop looking at me like that. It isnât the end of the world.â She punched the power button on the remote and the living room fell silent. After a few seconds, she said, âIâm tired of being sick.â
âThen letâs go to your appointment so you can get better.â
She shook her head sadly. âChemotherapy is killing me, not cancer. Going through that stuff is inhumane. Iâd rather you just dragged me outside by my hair and shoot me a few times.â
Diana drew in a sharp breath. âNanaââ
âIâm not going.â
Her grandmotherâs hard tone left no room for argument and Diana reconsidered holding her breath. Defeated, she clunked over to the armchair next to the sofa and plopped down. âFine. You donât want to go, then Iâm not going to make you.â
âGood.â
âWhy should I care if my last surviving relative wants to give up and die on me?â
Louisa shook her head as a light chuckle filled the room. âThe guilt thing isnât going to work this time, sweetie. I fell for that last week.â
Diana clamped her mouth closed and felt the sting of tears around her eyes.
Louisa inched closer to the chair and reached for Dianaâs hand.
âIf you donât go, youâll die,â Diana said.
âSuffering through that kind of therapy is no way to live.â Louisa squeezed her hand. âI want to enjoy the time I have left. Not only that, but I want to see you happy again. No more worrying about the future and medical bills we canât afford.â
âIs that what this is about?â Diana leaned forward, convinced she had found the real reason behind Louisaâs rash behavior.
âItâs part of it, but by no means all of it.â Louisaâs gaze softened as she scanned Dianaâs face. âI worry so much about you.â
âMe?â
âYes, you. Youâve been through so much and at such a young age.â
âIâm thirty, Nana.â
âStill a child,â she said gently. âI wish I could shoulder a fraction of the load you carry, then maybe the world wouldnât seem so heavy.â
Against Dianaâs will, a tear trickled down her face and she quickly wiped it away. âIâm going to be just fine. Weâre going to be fine.â
Louisa continued as if she hadnât heard her. âDo you know, I canât remember the last time I heard you laugh. At your age you should be having the time of your lifeâdating different men every day of the week.â
âHa,â Diana exclaimed at the absurdity. âMaybe you should get a CT scan next.â
Louisa frowned. âIâm serious.â
âI know. Thatâs what makes this conversation scary.â Diana eased out of her shoes. âMen are the last thing on my mind,â she lied smoothly as she pushed all thoughts of Marcel out of her head.
âIâm not saying you have to marry and settle down before I kick the bucket. Iâm not one of those who believe women can only be