damn, I shouldnât have thought of those eels.
âArlen, you know, I donât like sushi.â
He was grunting and kind of sweaty. He paused in his efforts. âOf course you do, dear. We have it all the time.â
I grunted to show I was working with him. âBut thatâs for you. You like it, I donât.â
He raised himself on his arms and looked down at me. âCan we discuss this tomorrow? Better yet, you can get whatever you want next time.â
I moved my hips and clenched my internal muscles. Thatâs only fair, not to ruin his mood. I even reached down and held his sac. I know how he likes that.
He was right back into the moment, pushing and pumping with vigorous intent. âOh, baby. Oh, yes.â
I squeezed a little harder. âArlen, the next time my skull hits the frigging headboard, you can kiss these boys good-bye.â
He put his hand on the top of my head to keep me in place. Now I felt kind of squashed and suffocated. This wasnât working, either, but I knew it was my faultâI guess I am too easily satisfiedâso I moaned a few times, urging him on. Of course I did. The sooner he was done, the sooner I could go to sleep.
Afterward, he wasnât tired. He rolled over and turned on the light. âWhy didnât you say anything about the sushi before?â
I tried to shield my eyes from the lampâs glare before I was wide awake again, but he took my arm so I had to look at him. âI wanted you to be happy.â
âPast tense?â Of course heâd pick up on that, with his logical mind.
âNo, of course not. Iâll always want you to be happy.â
âBut youâre not?â
âItâs been a rough day.â
âAnd you wanted something more exciting? What did you expect me to do, come up with whips and hand-cuffs?â
âGood grief, no.â I couldnât imagine him going docile and subservient, and I have a better imagination than most people. I certainly wasnât into pain, which was where this conversation was leading. âI justââ
âYou and your damned imagination. Canât you give it a rest?â
I was wide awake now.âWhatâs that supposed to mean?â
âI keep thinking you want me to be one of your superheroes, and I never measure up.â
âI donâtââ
âYou do. You live in some kind of fantasy world where people can leave their jobs in the middle of the afternoon, where they can fly over buildings to get to your side, where doodling and dreaming can pay the rent.â
Well, my doodling was paying the rent, and the price of his damned sushi, since Iâd said Iâd treat.
âLetâs not argue, Arlen. Iâve had enough upset today, what with the troll and all.â
He was sitting up, putting his clothes back on. We both knew thereâd be no invitation to spend the night. âThe what?â
âThe, ah, trauma of the traffic mess. I even had to be interviewed by a cop.â
âAh, that troll.â
âNo, he was nice about it.â
He was dressed and ready to go. I pulled the sheet up so I wasnât the only naked one. He leaned over to kiss me good night. âIâll see you on the weekend.â
âUh, no. My cousin is coming, remember? She has a CT scan at Sloan early on Monday, so I invited her to stay for the weekend.â Memorial Sloan-Kettering was the cancer hospital in New York. Thatâs where you want your family, even if it was almost three hours away from where they lived.
âYou hate your cousin.â
âNo, I donât.â And even if I did, no one else was allowed to criticize my family.
âYou always complained when she came in for chemo.â
âI was upset at all the time it took from my work to go with her when her mother or father couldnât. And no, I wouldnât let her go by herself. She was a snotty kid, thatâs all, eight