neighborhood for a couple of days. It would be enough time to plan out of this thing.â
Blue jumped like he had been scalded. He said, âMy God, no! Have you forgotten how Hutch, the policy banker, was shotgunned to ribbons there on a busy street in broad daylight? The killers loaded ball bearings in the shells.
âThe outfit has a full nelson on the town. Besides, itâs too small. Son, youâve got to realize weâve hit the bad-luck jackpot. The F.B.I. and Pinkertons, by comparison, are kindly amateurs.
âThe torturers of the outfit have almost a one hundred percent find-and-murder average. White Folks, the damn sad thing is that I am responsible for all of this happening to you.â
I said, âNow, Blue, you know better than that. Sure the play for the old man was your idea. But I know damn well you didnât know he was tied to Nino. We both know itâs never a good idea to play for a home guard. It was a worse mistake not to research him.
âI wasnât tricked or pressured into playing for Frascati, you know. I donât understand how and why you can take the blame for a blunder we made together. Blue, we canât afford to confuse each other.
âBlue, I owe you my life. I canât forget how you stood by me when the Goddess put me into that crazy drunken tailspin. Nothing can change that or the sincere affection I feel for you. Weâre not going to die. Like always, weâll come up with the perfect con to escape the trap.â
It was pure bravado. Blue didnât answer. I had desolate death-tinged thoughts as we passed the gleaming row of Michigan Avenueâs luxury shops.
Finally Blue broke the morbid spell. He said, âFolks, turn left at Lake. Weâll go to Jewtown. Iâve got an idea.â
I turned and drove westward. I was puzzled. I wondered why Blue wanted to go to Jewtown. It was a tragic Westside slum inhabited by poverty-mauled blacks.
Jewish merchants operated the countless shops and bazaars by day. At nightfall the thronging bargain hunters from all over the city deserted it. Few, if any, of the Jewish merchants lived there.
I just couldnât figure Blueâs angle. Blue had ignored my question of his lone guilt for our desperate plight. I was at the point of reopening the matter when Blue coupled onto my train of thought. He almost whispered.
He said, âJohn Patrick OâBrien, you will be thirty-six years old January fifteenth. That means that for the last twenty years my grifting way of life in this cold world has been yours. Inside you feel and think black like me. Outside youâre lily white. Itâs a damn sad combination.
âThe black Southside taught you that bitter lesson for all of your life. Youâre a whiz at the grift. Donât say it, Iâll say it. Yes, I taught you all the con you know. It was easy, because you had a natural feel for the con. You feel close to me, indebted to me.
âSome blacks have hated you because they believed you werereally white. Some have despised you even though they knew you were Phalaâs child. As a white child born of a brown mother they had to
hate
you. For them you are the symbol of your white fatherâs sexual violation of a black woman.
âSon, in your mind I have been some kind of sympathetic unselfish stepfather. Iâve been a constant buffer for you against the black haters. And, yes, itâs true, I possibly saved your life when that nigger-hating white broad almost cracked you up. But that life I saved was one I had selfishly molded to danger.
âSon, Iâm old and weary now, and I care about you too much to con you. Folks, the time has come to give you the complete, from-the-heart truth.
âSure I took you in off those brutal streets. I took the risk and sheltered you from the juvenile authorities who wanted to make you a ward of the court, after those filthy black dogs drove Phala to madness.
âYou probably