moment. I held my breath, praying to God that she’d understand where I was coming from. I wasn’t used to apologizing, and I wasn’t sure my words were enough.
How can simple words undo all the pain I’ve caused?
Yet I had to try. Try, because it was important to me and Jade and Eva.
Jade’s bottom lip trembled when she spoke, yet her voice was strong and filled with love. “It was an accident. I’ve known you all my life, and in my heart I’m convinced you’d never do such a thing purposely. The past can’t be undone. All we can do is learn from it and move forward—wiser and with more compassion.”
My gaze flitted from Jade to Eva and then back to Jade again. How did I deserve two such strong and extraordinary people in my life? It could only be my angels looking after me. I wasn’t a religious man, yet I could be convinced otherwise just by the virtue of these two women.
I pulled Jade into a hug and rubbed her back while closing my eyes. I sensed that most of the people in the restaurant had kinda stopped talking so they could observe the craziness going on at our table, but frankly I didn’t give two fucks about what they thought.
This was what Jade and I needed, and there was no better time than at that moment. Who knew what the next minute held for all of us? Since Amy’s death, that was the one thing I was acutely aware of. One minute we breathed, we lived —the next we could be bleeding and dying, our lives ripped from us. There were no fucking guarantees, and I wasn’t taking chances any longer with Jade.
When I opened my eyes and searched for Eva’s face, her expression blew me away. She’d leaned forward and placed a hand on each of my and Jade’s thighs, smiling through her tears. Eva was as much a part of this cathartic experience as Jade and I.
God, she’s beautiful.
Jade leaned back and framed my face with her hands. “I forgive you, Harrison. For the sake of the life I carry inside of me, I think it’s time to move forward and forget the past. Thank you for telling me how you feel. It means more to me than you will ever know.”
Holy fuck.
Words turned out to be exactly the right thing. They had the power to heal. With time and a fuckload of help from these amazing women, I might be able to be set free once and for all from the torment that had taken over my life.
I smiled. The glimmer of hope I’d seen for myself was something I never thought I’d experience.
Eva waved the waitress over. “Our coffees are cold. Can we please have a fresh round?”
The waitress smiled. “Sure, I’ll be back soon.” She removed our cups and left our table.
It was the strangest lunch I’d had in my entire life. What had started out as a reason to see more of Eva had turned on its head and given me what I really needed—more time with Jade.
But I was far from out of the woods. Ryder was still an integral part of this, and I pushed down the uneasy feeling that sooner or later I’d have to face him, too. It was easy to apologize to my sister—after all, I’d always loved her. But Ryder? He was part of the problem and part of the reason I carried hatred and vengeance in my heart.
I’d lived with rage for so long that it had become part of my DNA. Who I was as a person had been shaped by events beyond my control—I was possibly so damaged that I was beyond saving. I wasn’t sure if I could ever let go on my own.
I need Eva. I needed her to save me .
Before the waitress returned with the coffee, I had an overwhelming urge to get out of there. It was as if the walls were closing in on me. My chest tightened as I pushed back my chair and with a quick goodbye, I turned on my heels and left as fast as my legs would carry me.
Chapter 6 — Eva
H arrison never failed to surprise me. He was shutting me out, and it hurt more than I cared to admit.
“Damn it, Harrison,” I cursed under my breath as I watched Jade’s face pale. All the good he’d done was close to being wiped out
How can simple words undo all the pain I’ve caused?
Yet I had to try. Try, because it was important to me and Jade and Eva.
Jade’s bottom lip trembled when she spoke, yet her voice was strong and filled with love. “It was an accident. I’ve known you all my life, and in my heart I’m convinced you’d never do such a thing purposely. The past can’t be undone. All we can do is learn from it and move forward—wiser and with more compassion.”
My gaze flitted from Jade to Eva and then back to Jade again. How did I deserve two such strong and extraordinary people in my life? It could only be my angels looking after me. I wasn’t a religious man, yet I could be convinced otherwise just by the virtue of these two women.
I pulled Jade into a hug and rubbed her back while closing my eyes. I sensed that most of the people in the restaurant had kinda stopped talking so they could observe the craziness going on at our table, but frankly I didn’t give two fucks about what they thought.
This was what Jade and I needed, and there was no better time than at that moment. Who knew what the next minute held for all of us? Since Amy’s death, that was the one thing I was acutely aware of. One minute we breathed, we lived —the next we could be bleeding and dying, our lives ripped from us. There were no fucking guarantees, and I wasn’t taking chances any longer with Jade.
When I opened my eyes and searched for Eva’s face, her expression blew me away. She’d leaned forward and placed a hand on each of my and Jade’s thighs, smiling through her tears. Eva was as much a part of this cathartic experience as Jade and I.
God, she’s beautiful.
Jade leaned back and framed my face with her hands. “I forgive you, Harrison. For the sake of the life I carry inside of me, I think it’s time to move forward and forget the past. Thank you for telling me how you feel. It means more to me than you will ever know.”
Holy fuck.
Words turned out to be exactly the right thing. They had the power to heal. With time and a fuckload of help from these amazing women, I might be able to be set free once and for all from the torment that had taken over my life.
I smiled. The glimmer of hope I’d seen for myself was something I never thought I’d experience.
Eva waved the waitress over. “Our coffees are cold. Can we please have a fresh round?”
The waitress smiled. “Sure, I’ll be back soon.” She removed our cups and left our table.
It was the strangest lunch I’d had in my entire life. What had started out as a reason to see more of Eva had turned on its head and given me what I really needed—more time with Jade.
But I was far from out of the woods. Ryder was still an integral part of this, and I pushed down the uneasy feeling that sooner or later I’d have to face him, too. It was easy to apologize to my sister—after all, I’d always loved her. But Ryder? He was part of the problem and part of the reason I carried hatred and vengeance in my heart.
I’d lived with rage for so long that it had become part of my DNA. Who I was as a person had been shaped by events beyond my control—I was possibly so damaged that I was beyond saving. I wasn’t sure if I could ever let go on my own.
I need Eva. I needed her to save me .
Before the waitress returned with the coffee, I had an overwhelming urge to get out of there. It was as if the walls were closing in on me. My chest tightened as I pushed back my chair and with a quick goodbye, I turned on my heels and left as fast as my legs would carry me.
Chapter 6 — Eva
H arrison never failed to surprise me. He was shutting me out, and it hurt more than I cared to admit.
“Damn it, Harrison,” I cursed under my breath as I watched Jade’s face pale. All the good he’d done was close to being wiped out
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