help with the kids while she worked. He had envied her that, had envied her for belonging.
Bonner rose. âFlash is as close to family as she has. Iâll give him a call.â
He set off just as Travis returned. âThe ambulance is three minutes away. No sense my moving her. Theyâll have a long board.â
Tom sat on his knees in the snow. He touched Breeâs neck, her forehead, her cheek, wanting to do something and feeling hamstrung. He brushed snow from her hood, for what good that did. She had been at the wrong place at the wrong time. So had he.
Desperate for someone to blame, he looked skyward. The clouds were a dense night gray, still heavy with snow. âItâs October, for Christâs sake. Whenâs this supposed to stop?â
Carl, who continued to hold his flashlight on Bree, said, âWeatherman says morning.â
âYeah, like he said this was gonna be rain.â
âDifference of a few degrees, is all.â
Tom might have said what he thought of that if the ambulance hadnât circled the town green just then. Its engine was all business, giving it away even before it pulled around the corner, red and white lights flashing, and ground to a halt.
Leaning over Bree, Tom felt a fast relief, a sharp fear, and something almost proprietary. He talked softly, telling her that help had come, that she was going to be all right, that she shouldnât worry about anything. He wasnât pleased when the ambulance crew hustled him aside, or when one of them threw a blanket around him and poked at his face. He was most bothered when they wouldnât let him ride with Bree.
âIâm all she has right now,â he argued, acutely aware of the âright now.â Bree might not have family, but she had friends. He had seen the way she had with people. Flash would be only the start. Once word spread that she was hurt, friends would rush to her bedside, and he would be the outsider, the villain of the piece.
The grasp Eliot Bonner took of his arm said it was happening already. âWe need to talk, you and me. Weâll follow in the cruiser. Unless,â he added dryly, âyou were a doctor back in the city.â The ambulance doors closed. âYou never did say what you were.â
Soon after Tom had come to town, the police chief had stopped by. âOffering a welcome,â he had said, with a too wide smile, and a welcome might have been part of it. Tom wasnât so untrusting as to deny that. But the bottom line had been curiosity about Panamaâs newest resident.
In the ten minutes that they had spent talking on the front walk, Tom had been vague. More than anything, he had wanted anonymity, and he still wanted it. But having been involved in an accident in which one of Panamaâs own was badly hurt, he was in a precarious position. He might have a history of lying to friends and familyâworse, of lying to himselfâbut he knew better than to lie to the law.
âIâm a writer,â he said.
Bonner sighed. âAh, jeez. Another writer. Searching for inspiration, am I right?â
âNot really.â There was so much else for him to seek before he sought that.
âThen what?â
Tom didnât answer. He had come to Panama to distance himself from the arrogant, self-absorbed man heâd become. He had wanted time alone to think, to soul-search, to look inside and see what bits of decency were leftâall of which was self-indulgent, none of it remotely relevant to what had happened that night.
For the first time, watching the ambulance pull away, he felt cold. There was some comfort in the thought that Bree had his jacketâthough he wondered if they had tossed it aside to work on her. He pictured her in a neck brace, strapped flat, being hooked up to monitors and IVs. He prayed she was holding her own.
The chief ushered him toward the Blazer. âYouâre shaking. Not goinâ into shock on