corner before she can offer a greeting.
The bell rings.
I relax. I do the math. I only have 270 days. 6,480 hours. 388,800 minutes to go. I remember what Hanna said as I watch the clock. 388,799 minutes. Hereâs to the lasts .
Six
T he brown box is beat-up and held together by a botched tape job. I canât tell if someone opened it and closed it back up or if it was tossed and abused on the journey to my house. The return address is the police station. Instead of opening it, I sit down next to it on the porch steps. Jennyâs out somewhere with Fern and itâs too early for Dad to be home, so Iâm alone. Itâs just me and the box. I eye my skateboard leaning against the house and think about going to the park.
A door slams across the street and Hanna heads for our yard. I can tell sheâs pissed by the way she walks, with her head down and little, quick steps.
She plops next to me and pulls her cap low. Her sulkingeffort is not lost on me, but it makes her look cute instead of seriously angry.
âHey,â I say.
âHow was your first day?â she asks.
âI survived.â People were a little weird, but I kind of expected that. Levon was right about the papers for my history class. Thereâs one due in three weeks. My English teacher has decided to torture us right at the start with Frankenstein . I thought itâd be cool, but after flipping through the first pages I can tell itâs going to be slow reading. I have a stack of new music for orchestra and jazz band. âYou?â
âOkay. Are you locked out?â
âNo.â
âWhatâre you doing?â
âNothing.â
She takes off her hat and lets her brown hair fall just past her shoulders, combing it with her fingers. I reach out and fix a section for her. Her hair is so soft. I let my hand linger a little, but drop it when she starts speaking again.
âMom wants to talk with me later about Steve. But I already know what sheâs going to say.â
âWhat?â
âShe wants him to move in with us.â
I wait for her to continue, not sure how to respond. I try tothink of what Grace would say if she were here. Would she nod her head? Give Hanna a hug? That could get awkward or interesting. Maybe Grace would tell her what a bastard Steve is? No, sheâd let Hanna talk.
Grace was a great listener. She wasnât an âuh-humâ or âyesâ or ârightâ commenter throughout your story. She didnât wait until you took a breath, then immediately start speaking. Sheâd wait until you were completely done, look you in the eye, and say something profound, like Tomorrow will be better than today . So I wait for Hanna.
After a moment, she continues, âSteveâs decent. I mean, he could be a complete asshole, but heâs not. He always asks me about what Iâm doing. Last week he brought me a bag of Skittles, not the regular kind, but the sour ones. You know, the ones I like. He remembered me talking about them. And he makes Mom happy. But moving in. Thatâs serious. That changes things. Heâll be living with us, as if weâre a family. I donât know. Maybe I just need to get over myself, but . . .â
âBut heâs not your dad.â
âWhen they first split, I used to imagine all these scenarios of them getting back together. Did you do that?â
I shrug. âI canât remember. Maybe. My mom left when I was a lot younger.â
Grace was the one who would talk about Mom comingback. She made up some story about how Mom was kidnapped and how weâd have to wear disguises and go and rescue her, like she was a princess in one of Graceâs stories. She thought Mom must be scared. Why else wouldnât she have taken us with her? That had to be the explanation, because the other option was too painful. Over time Grace stopped talking about it.
âWhatâs that?â Hanna asks,
Melinda Metz, Laura J. Burns