hospitals—doctors seemingly infected with the neuroses and psychoses of their patients. He’d seen a doctor go catatonic one day in the midst of his catatonic patients.
“The important thing. Larry, is that you rest,” his father said. “That you let the effects of this whole thing wear off.
And that you don’t tell anyone else about it.”
Years had passed. The doctor’s work in Maine had gone well. And gradually he had built a solid private practice independent of his father.
As for the specter, he had left it behind him in New Orleans, along with the memory of Deirdre Mayfair, sitting eternally in that chair.
Yet there remained in him a lingering fear that he might someplace or other see the thing again. There was the lingering fear that if such a thing had happened once, it might happen another time for entirely different reasons. The doctor had tasted real horror in those damp, dark New Orleans days, and his view of the world had never been the same.
Now, as he stood beside the window in the darkened hotel room in New York, he found the whole affair overwhelming himagain. And as he had done a thousand times before, he analyzed the strange tale. He searched for its deeper meaning.
Was the thing really stalking him in New Orleans, or had the doctor misunderstood the silent specter?
Maybe the man had not tried to scare him at all. Maybe it had in fact been pleading with him not to forget that woman! Perhaps in some way it was a bizarre projection of the woman’s own desperate thoughts, an image sent to him by a mind which knew no other means of communication.
Ah, there was no comfort in such an idea. Too awful to imagine the helpless woman pleading with him through a spectral emissary, who, for reasons never to be known, could not speak, but only appear for brief moments.
But who could interpret these strange elements? Who would venture to say the doctor was right?
Aaron Lightner, the Englishman, the collector of ghost stories, who had given him the card with the word Talamasca? He had said that he wanted to help the drowned man in California: “Maybe he doesn’t know that it has happened to others. Maybe I am needed to tell him that others have also come back from the edge of death with such gifts.”
Yes, that would help, wouldn’t it? To know that others had seen ghosts too?
But that was not the worst of it, seeing a ghost. Something worse than fear had taken him back to that screen porch and to the wan figure of the woman in the rocker. It was guilt, guilt he would bear all his life—that he had not tried harder to help her, that he had never called that daughter out west.
The morning light was just breaking over the city. He watched the change in the sky, the subtle illumination of the soiled walls opposite. Then he went to the closet and removed the Englishman’s card from his coat pocket.
THE TALAMASCA
We watch
And we are always here.
He picked up the telephone.
It was an hour in the telling, which surprised him, but all those details had come tumbling back. He had not minded the little tape recorder going, with its tiny red eye blinking. After all he had used no names, no street numbers, not even any dates. New Orleans, an old house, he had said. And on and on he had talked.He realized now that he had never touched his breakfast, except to empty the coffee cup over and over again.
Lightner had proved an excellent listener, responding gently without ever interrupting. But the doctor did not feel better. In fact, he felt foolish when it was over. As he watched Lightner gather up the little recorder and put it in his briefcase, he had half a mind to ask for the tape.
It was Lightner who broke the silence as he laid down several bills over the check.
“There’s something I must explain to you,” he said. “I think it will ease your mind.”
What could possibly do that?
“You remember,” Lightner said, “that I told you I collect ghost stories.”
“Yes.”
“Well, I know of