winter sunlight that engulfed her at the front of the house seemed impossibly bright. She blinked and shifted her aching head. âNo, not Connorâ¦itâs not possibleâ¦not you !â
Ignoring those objections, Gianni guided her over to a worn bench and settled her down on it with surprisingly gentle hands. He hunkered down in front of her and reached for her trembling fingers, enclosing them firmly in his. âThere is no easy way to tell you these things. Iâm working really hard to keep the shocks to the minimum.â
That one shock had temporarily left her bereft of the ability to even respond. And yet he could call that one bombshell keeping the shocks to the âminimumâ? Dear God, what worse could he tell her than he had already told her? Her face was pale as parchment. âMy head hurts,â she mumbled, like a child seeking sympathy in an effort to ward off punishment for some offence.
Gianniâs hands tightened fiercely on hers. âIâm sorry, but I had to tell you. Why do you think Iâm here? Why do you think Iâve spent three endless years trying to trace you both?â he demanded emotively.
Faith focused on him numbly. The father of her child. Why hadnât that possibility occurred to her sooner? But she knew why, didnât she? Connor might as well have sprung into being without benefit of any male input whatsoever.
Once she had been frantic to know who had fathered her child, but when she had admitted that need to her parents they had gone all quiet and looked at each other uncomfortably. And when she had questioned their attitude to what seemed to her an absolutely crucial question that had to be answered, she had recognised what they didnât want to put into words.
They were afraid that she had been promiscuous, that she might not even know for sure who had actually got her pregnant. And she had been very upset to realise that her parentscould harbour such sordid suspicions about a life she could no longer remember.
âThe father of my baby might love meâ¦might be looking for me right now!â she had sobbed in distraught self-defence.
âIf he loved you, why were you on your own?â
âIf you disappeared, why hasnât he been in touch with the police?â
âAnd why hasnât he come here looking for you? Surely he would at least have known where your parents lived? Even though you hadnât been in touch with us recently, wouldnât he have arrived here to check us out as a last resort?â
Faced with those unanswerable questions, Faith had finally let go of the idea that she might have conceived her baby in a caring relationship. And from that moment on she had begun suppressing her own curiosity, shrinking from the idea that Connor might be the result of some casual sexual encounter. Yet those suspicions had only fronted worse fears, she conceded now, a hysterical laugh lodging like a giant stone in her throat. These days you read so many horror stories about the level penniless and homeless teenagers could be reduced to just to surviveâ¦
âMillyâ¦â Gianni tugged her upright.
âThatâs n-not my name,â she stated through chattering teeth.
He raised his hands to capture her taut cheekbones and she shivered because he was so very close. âThatâs the name I knew you by,â he murmured softly.
âPlease let go of meâ¦â
âYouâre shaking like a jerry-built building in an earthquake,â Gianni countered drily.
She realised that she was. Involuntarily, she braced her hands on his chest. Instantly the heat of him sprang out at her and she swiftly removed her hands again, almost off-balancing in her eagerness to put some distance between them. But the distinctive scent of him still flared in her nostrils. Clean, warm, intrinsically male and somehow earthy ina way Edward was not. Edward always smelt of soap. Oh, my God, Edward, a voice