canât have a bunch of Less Thans holding us back.â
My head was swimming. Not only was he suggesting we werenât normal but that we might not even be orphans. âThis is an orphanage,â I managed.
âWho said?â
âThe Brown Shirts.â
âYou donât think theyâd lie, do you?â
My knees felt weak. Was it even remotely possible he was telling the truth? That weâd been ripped from our mothersâ arms and sent here because we were considered âless than normalâ? I felt the sudden need to get away.
âWhatâs the matter?â he called out. âCanât face facts?â
That did it. I spun around and leaped toward him and we tumbled hard on the rain-soaked ground. My fists began pummeling him. Roundhouses and jabs and uppercuts, one after another, landing first on one side of his face and then the other.
The other LTs made a halfhearted attempt to break us up, but they seemed all too happy to watch. And then I realized: Cat wasnât fighting back. He was letting me hit him, barely blocking my punches. It made me all the angrier.
âThatâs enough,â Cat finally said, and he sent a fist in my direction. I fell to the side.
I pushed myself to a sitting position, blood trickling from my nose. Catâs one punch had drawn blood; it had taken me a couple dozen to do the same to him.
âYou showed him,â said Flush.
But I knew I hadnât. The LTs drifted off to the barracks.
âWhy didnât you fight back?â I panted.
âI only beat up people if I have reason to. I donât have a good reason to beat you up.â He sipped a breath. âYet.â
He pushed himself up until he was sitting in the mud, his face near mine.
âIf youâre so smart, let me ask you this,â he said. âWhat do you know about the men outside camp?â
âYou mean the Brown Shirts?â
âI mean the other men.â
I couldâve bluffed my way through an answer, but I was too exhausted for lies. âNothing,â I conceded.
âI figured as much.â Then he said, âThey know about all of you. And if you donât do something about it, youâll be dead within the year.â
Although I tried to hide it, my eyes widened. âProve it,â I said.
âWhatâre you doing tomorrow afternoon?â
That night I couldnât stop thinking about what Cat had said, his words jangling around my head like pebbles in a tin can. When I finally fell asleep I dreamed of her again: the woman with long black hair. She existed in some distant memory of mine, but who she was and how I knew her were details forever lost. All I knew was that sheâd been appearing in my dreams more and more often until I no longer knew what was memory and what was imagination.
In the dream, we were racing through a field of prairie grass, my childâs hand encompassed in hers. Although she was far older, it was all I could do to keep up with herâtwo of my short strides matching one of hers.
Behind us came a series of sharp pops, like firecrackers. There were other sounds, too. Shrill whistles. Shouting. Barking dogs.
The land sloped downward to a hollow and we drifted to a stop. She put her hands atop my shoulders and stared at me. Wrinkles etched her face. Crowâs feet danced at the edges of her eyes.
I realized the pops were bullets; I could hear them pinging off the rocks and whistling past my ears.Someone was after us. Someone was trying to kill us.
Even though the woman seemed about to tell me something, I didnât want to hear itâI didnât want to be there âso I jolted myself awake, the blackness of the Quonset hut pressing down on me, my breathing fast.
It was another hour before I fell back to sleep, wondering who the woman was and what she was about to say.
8.
H OPE AND F AITH ARE jammed into the back of the Humvee. The convoy makes its way across