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couple beers before coming out.  They came in to eat some pizza before heading out to a party.  Instantly, Derek and I are aware that Kelly is not with them.  I look at Derek and I can see the worry in his face. 
    “Where’s Kel?” Derek asks trying desperately to hide his concern.
    “She wouldn’t come out with us.  I’m sure you know why too.”  Jenna spits out with sass and her hands on her hips. 
    He looks at me with pleading eyes and I know that he wants to go to her. Of course, I want that more than anything. I reach over and hug him tightly before I tell him what he needs to hear.
    “Go. Go to her now.”
    “Are you sure?”
    “Yes, I didn’t even want to see the movie … remember you forced me into it?” He laughs as he starts to open the doors.
    “I owe you big time.”
    Jenna gives me a knowing wink of approval.  I smile because I’m happy that Derek will do the right thing.  Also, I’m relieved that things will work out with them.  The girls try to persuade me to stay and come out to the party, but I tell them that I’m too tired.  They are all so patient with me and I love them for trying, but I’m just not ready.  The last time I was at a party it ended up being the most traumatic night of my life.  Plus, Quinn is still involved with Matt and the fear of seeing Reed is enough to keep me at bay for the time being. 

    Monday morning I wake early to head out for my test.  Quickly, I get dressed and brush my teeth.  I don’t have time to shower because I allowed myself to sleep to the last minute possible since I stayed up late studying.  I’m ready for my test now though.  The weather is still bitter cold and I bundle myself up tightly before grabbing my bag.  I open my door and there on the floor is a small long box with a familiar stationary taped to it.  As I reach down to pick the box up I look to see if anyone else is stirring around the hallway, but it’s too early.  I move back into my dorm room to open it up.  Once I unfold the note I see the initials branded on the top, GRH. 

    I open the box and there lie a pair of smooth, black and thick gloves with the logo that matches my coat, The North Face.  They look like they could beat the snowdrifts of Antarctica.  My other gloves that I always forget, including, as I was about to leave just now, are not nearly as warm or nice.  Smiling with an extra beat in my heart I slip my already cold hands into the gloves. 
     
     

C HAPTER 4

    The semester moves on and winter starts to lighten up.  Mid-term is fast approaching and I’ve managed to keep myself buried in my books.  My friends gently nudge me to get out more, but I still can’t do it.  The only way I push myself out of my boundaries is by going to play tennis with Reed every Saturday at our normal time.  We have yet to talk, but this past Saturday as he was walking off the courts he turned around giving me one of his famous smiles and winks.  I melted.  The urge to run to him and wrap myself around him was like nothing I had ever felt before.  I wanted to throw myself at him and beg him to forgive me… to take me back.  My stomach flipped and had butterflies just like I remembered. A surge of energy ran up through my chest causing my breathing to accelerate even more than it already was. I had to pace there on the courts to calm my breathing and prevent myself from hyperventilating. I didn’t go this past Saturday because I needed to study and my heart actually ached.   
    It’s mid-term week in March and just like every Tuesday evening I hop on the bus down Wisconsin Avenue towards the lake.  Part of the agreement with my parents to come back to school was that I meet with a therapist every week.  In all honesty, I agreed to get help without a fight.  By that point I knew I needed the help.  The part that I disagreed with is that my mom will also be attending every week.  It’s not like I threw a tantrum or anything, but I just made it clear