everything was going to work out fine, and that eventually weâd become one big happy family doing all these Instagram-worthy things, like hiking and biking and whatever.
Screw that. I donât drink or vape, I get good gradesâI do everything I am supposed to do, but still my life stinks and there isnât a damn thing I can do about it.
And itâs all his faultâMr. Fitch, aka Simon, aka Mr. I-Just-Want-To-Be-Your-Friend. God! He makes me want to puke. In five years, Iâll be gone. Outta here. Off to college and that will be that. I wonât ever, ever, come back, and my mom can cry all she wants, say how much she misses me all she wants, but I wonât care. And that will be my revenge. And when she gets old and needs someone to look after her, Iâll say, âDid you look after me? Nope! You moved me in with him, and for that youâll have to die alone and lonely. Sorry, Iâm not sorry!â
Okay, thatâs not true. Thatâs my secret revenge wish, but Iâd never, ever, ever do that to my mom. I love my mom. Love her with a cap âLâand all that mushy stuff. But that doesnât mean I canât be pissed at her for what sheâs done. I still have feelings, you know. I still hurt.
One week into eighth grade and things are just as bad at school as they were at the end of seventh grade. I still eat lunch alone, thanks to Laura Abelâs campaign against me (not worth getting into now), and then last week I twisted my ankle playing lacrosse (thought for sure it was broken). So Iâve got a stupid boot around my foot and too much time on my hands, and worse, Iâm home when heâs home. Students in my school are divided into different teams, each with different teachers, so thank God Almighty I donât have Mr. Fitch for social studies. But now that Iâm not playing lacrosse, we essentially have the same schedule, at least on days he doesnât coach robotics, and I canât stand to be alone with him.
Since Momâs unpacked the house (well, mostly unpacked it), sheâs been talking seriously about getting a job. Worst-case scenario alert! That would mean I could conceivably have hours alone with Simon after school. Can you say: Nightmare!
At least the new house is comfortable enough, but itâs not like I have any friends in the neighborhood. I donât really have any friends at all anymore (again, not worth getting into). My roomâaka my sanctuaryâis like my room in the old house, but it doesnât feel the same. Simonâs energy makes it different. Somehow it gets everywhere, floating like an airborne virus.
Anyway, I knew my mom was worried about money. The move was super expensive, and weâve had nonstop contractors since we got hereâelectricians, plumbers, painters, landscapers. Awesome, right? But Simon didnât think my mom needed to work at all. No, no, no. Mr. Fitch was set and ready to take care of us on his big teacherâs salary. I donât know how much he actually makes, but it canât be enough to support a family of four.
Even though they are not officially engaged yet, it is going to happen, so Simon is essentially my stepfather, which is nothing but a stupid label. I looked it up online, and, married or unmarried, he has nolegal right to make decisions on my behalf unless he adopts me. News flashâthat is not going to happen, not ever ever ever. If Mom gets hurt, or God forbid worse, it would be up to Nonni and Papa to look after me, not him.
It was a Tuesday afternoon when bad went to worse. Daisy and I were on the couch watching TV. Some dumb Netflix thing, doesnât matter, and I was doing what I do best these daysâfeeling sorry for myself and being mad at the world. Lame, I know. I wasnât an orphan in a war-torn country. I had a roof over my head. I had my dog (I love my dog so, so muchâand she makes a great couch cushion). I had everything
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