One man occasionally slurped from a soda can, making a smacking noise with his lips. The other whistled snatches of popular songs. The first sported Elvis sideburns. The second had a bushy lion’s mane of hair.
It might have been a trivial journey for the two attendants, but to the young man rigid with tension in the back, his breathing coming in short sprinter’s spurts, it was nothing of the sort. Every sound, every sensation seemed to signal something to him, each more terrifying and more threatening than the next. The beat of the windshield wipers was like some deep jungledrum playing a roll of doom. The humming of the tires against the slick road surface was a siren’s song of despair. Even the noise of his own labored wind seemed to echo, as if he were encased in a tomb. The restraints dug into his flesh, and he opened his mouth to scream for help, but could not make the right sound. All that emerged was a gargling burst of despair. One thought penetrated the symphony of discord—that if he survived the day, he was likely to never have a worse one.
When the ambulance shuddered to a halt in front of the hospital entrance, he heard one of his voices crying out over the stew of fear:
They will kill you here, if you are not careful
.
The ambulance drivers seemed oblivious to the imminent danger. They opened the doors to the vehicle with a crash, and indelicately pulled Francis out on a gurney. He could feel cold raindrops slapping against his face, mingling with a nervous sweat on his forehead, as the two men wheeled him through a wide set of doors into a world of harshly bright and unforgiving lights. They pushed him down a corridor, gurney wheels squealing against the linoleum, and at first all he could see, as it slid past, was the gray pockmarked ceiling. He was aware that there were other people in the corridor, but he was too scared to turn and face them. Instead, he kept his eyes fixed on the soundproofing above him, counting the number of light fixtures that he rolled beneath. When he reached four, the two men stopped.
He was aware that some other people had stepped to the front of the gurney. In the space just beyond his head, he heard some words spoken: “Okay, guys. We’ll take him from here.”
Then a massive, round, black face, sporting a wide row of uneven, grinning teeth suddenly appeared above him. The face was above an orderly’s white jacket that seemed, at first glance, to be several sizes too small.
“All right, Mister Francis Xavier Petrel, you ain’t gonna cause us no trouble now, are you?” The man had a slightly singsong tenor to his words, so that they came out with equal parts of menace and amusement. Francis did not know what to reply.
A second black face abruptly hovered into his sight on the other side of the gurney, also leaning into the air above him, and this other man said, “I don’t think this boy here is going to be any sort of hassle. Not in the tiniest little bit. Are you, Mister Petrel?” He, too, spoke with a soft Southern-tinged accent.
A voice shouted in his ear:
Tell them no!
He tried to shake his head, but had trouble moving his neck. “I won’t be a problem,” he choked out. The words seemed as raw as the day, but he was glad to hear he could speak. This reassured him a bit. He’d been afraid, throughout the day, that somehow he was going to lose the ability to communicate at all.
“Okay, then, Mister Petrel. We going to get you up off the gurney. Then wegoing to sit down, nice and easy in a wheelchair. You got that? Ain’t gonna be loosing those cuffs on your hands and feet quite yet, though. That’s gonna come after you speak to the doctor. Maybe he gives you a little something to calm you right down. Chill you right out. Nice and easy now. Sit up, swing those legs forward.”
Do what you’re told!
He did what he was told.
The motion made him dizzy, and he seemed to sway for a second. He felt a huge hand grab his shoulder to steady him. He