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than dealing with it.
     
    “Why are you throwing this back in my face?” I asked. I could feel my own anger push up in my chest, creep up my neck. I’d never been good at backing down. “All I’m doing is trying to take care of you. You were in an accident, dammit. You need help.”
     
    That was the wrong thing to say. The anger drained out of her, leaving an empty shell behind.
     
    “If you really want to help me then you pay for the hotel and the nurse that can stay there with me. I’m not going home with you. I can’t do it, Elijah. I’ve only lost six months, and I don’t even recognize my life anymore.” She pressed the heels of both hands against her forehead, squeezing her eyes shut like the pain had finally caught up with her.
     
    I wanted to argue. I wanted to fight with her. That familiar feeling in my chest was back, where I just couldn’t get rid of it without snapping, without breaking something. My fists balled as if they had a mind of their own. I got up, jammed them into my pockets and left the room. I couldn’t afford to lose it in here. Not now. Not when I’d already been so close to losing her.
     

Chapter  4 - Grace
    I couldn’t do it. As much as Elijah’s face was welcome, as much as I yearned to see him smile when he wasn’t in the room, I just couldn’t get myself to agree to go home with him. A lot had to do with the fact that I just felt so terribly alone. He was the only one that was around. The nurses changed shifts, every time it was a new face changing my bandages.
     
    And Justin didn’t come. I waited for him. I wanted him to come, needed him to tell me that everything was going to be okay, because it didn’t feel like it was going to be. And he just didn’t come.
     
    I tried phoning Shonda. Elijah knew I was here. Justin knew I was here. I haven’t heard from Shonda at all. She was the only person in this town that I could call my friend. She helped me keep my head clear when some things were hard, she made me laugh when I wanted to cry, and she let me talk. I was lucky that I had a friend like her.
     
    Her phone rolled over to voicemail every time. I needed a friend now.
     
    By the time night fell, I felt like I was going to explode. Or implode. Or something. I didn’t want to be in the hospital bed anymore. The bandages around my head had been replaced with a bandage just underneath my hairline on my right side, but it itched and every time I picked at it, someone was around to tell me not to do it.
     
    And I didn’t have a home. It was gone. Everything was gone. One minute I was drinking coffee with Elijah, the next I woke up in a hospital and I didn’t have a home, a life, a future. I didn’t have Justin.
     
    I had a job I wasn’t allowed to do because of my injuries, and a boss that insisted I lived with him now when I couldn’t remember how that had happened, when I was so sure my love for Justin had weighed more than my love for Elijah. It wasn’t like I didn’t love Elijah. There was a time in my life when I’d thought maybe this was it, maybe Elijah was the one. But things had changed.
     
    And apparently now they’d changed back and I felt like I hadn’t been around to witness it. I knew it was stupid, of course I was there. I just couldn’t remember. But to me it just felt like it had never happened. The only thing worse than not remembering the last six months was that everyone else around me did.
     
    I tried to backtrack. Maybe if I remembered what came first, how it had all happened, who I’d fallen in love with in the beginning, I could remember what had happened after.
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    Fort Atkinson was a town much smaller than any of the places I’d ever been. I was used to travelling. Our family, my parents, my sister and I, had moved around a lot for my dad’s job. That same restlessness had gotten a hold of me, and when they’d settled in New York I’d kept going. Detroit. Chicago. Sacramento. Philadelphia. And back to New York. My mom