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Your closet
looks like it belongs to a nine year old."
    "I shop at trendy places."
    Michelle points at me, "You shop at trendy
places and somehow come out with the plain shit no one else wants.
Those knit t-shirts you wear are pajamas tops. Don’t even start
with me." She's exasperated.
    I look at Mona, but she puts her hands in the
air, "I'm not getting involved." She turns and faces her closet.
When she turns back around she is holding something dark blue.
    Michelle squeals, "Yes. Oh my god that would be
perfect."
    Sometimes I miss my mom. This is one of those
moments.
    I pull off my clothes and look at the blue
thing. I don’t really know how to put it on. I try pulling it on
but its got shorts instead of a skirt.
    Michelle snatches it and holds it in front of me
to step into. She pulls it up my body, launching my granny panties
into my ass.
    "Oh my god." I squirm away and pull it out of my
butt.
    Mona laughs, "It's a romper. Don’t frown like
that. It's pretty. You look pretty."
    Michelle brushes my hair and Mona attacks with
the makeup. I try to protest but they move fast and talk over
me.
    I turn and look at myself. I look different.
It's not bad different or good different. It's just different and
I'm instantly uncomfortable. I hug my arms around myself.
    Michelle pulls my arms at my side, "No
fidgeting. Haven’t you seen Pretty Woman? It makes you look taller
when you don’t fidget."
    Whatever a romper is it's uncomfortable. It's
giving me constant wedgies and I feel like it's going to fall off
my boobs any second. It’s a strapless one piece with shorts instead
of a skirt. The shorts are short and the top is low cut. I feel
naked. I reach for a sweater but Michelle swats my hand, "No. No.
Ewww."
    Mona hands me a pair of heels.
    "Delicious choice. Navy sling back kitten heels
look amazing and she shouldn’t fall in that low of a heel."
    They examine me and I shake my head, "This is a
bad idea." I don’t wobble in the heels, because contrary to popular
belief I can walk in them. I practiced a lot in Willow's one
pair.
    Michelle grabs my hand and drags me from the
room. Mona follows us and I instantly want to turn back.
    My stomach has the uneasy feeling from the night
before and I'm exhausted.

Chapter Four

    Clubs suck.
    This is a discovery I made while being groped
twice on the dance floor and shoved as I tried to wind my way
through the crowds. I fell into another girl and someone spilled a
drink on my foot. My shoe was sloshing with booze on the way to the
bathroom.
    Now sitting on the toilet cleaning my shoe and
foot, I lean my head against the wall. I want to go home. The light
in the bathroom flickers.
    I have a funny feeling in my stomach. It's the
one from the other night when Wyatt scared me.
    I swallow and put my shoe back on. My toes stick
to the inside, but at least it isn’t wet anymore.
    I reach for the handle on the door, but have a
terrible feeling I shouldn’t open it. I hesitate and watch my
fingers tremble.
    My mother's words float into my mind, 'your
stomach has magic Nene. When it tells you someone isn’t good, you
run. I don’t care where you are or who you're with. You run and you
don’t stop until the magic stops.'
    I feel a shiver come over me. I step up onto the
toilet and crouch down. My shoe almost slips off the seat, but I
manage to hold myself still.
    I hold my breath and wait. The air grows cold. I
expect to see my breath but I don’t. Instead I hear girls laughing
and stumbling into the bathroom.
    "Oh my god he's such a loser. I can't believe
she is hooking up with him."
    I feel like it's the only chance I'll have to
leave the bathroom. I open the door and run from the stall. I wash
my hands quickly. I never take my eyes off the other girls. They
primp in the mirror and give me weird looks.
    I run from the bathroom and get lost in the
crowd again. Suddenly the club doesn’t feel so bad. Something in
the air makes me happy. The music feels like it's getting under my
skin