moments I hope to find for the show, when something unexpected and utterly charming presents itself. I can picture exactly how I would film and edit the scene, scoring it to highlight the farmerâs surprise and delight when he tastes the fruits of his labor.
Now, as weâre muddling through todayâs filming, Iâm not sure about anything. A feeling of devastation curls around my heart.
Martin is taking a break at the catering table now, chatting with the local caterer contracted to keep the crew fed during the shoot. The two women arenât much younger than I am, yet they seem like children as they babble and practically faint in the presence of Martin Harlow.
Although Iâm standing nearby, they donât even see me. During filming, if youâre not the star or director, youâre invisible. So I just hang around and observe. By now, Iâm used to Martinâs good looks and charm, but I do remember seeing him for the first time and being struck by his Texas-Âborn-Âand-Âbred handsomeness and the utterly magnetic pull of his charm when he makes eye contact with you and smiles.
âIâm always starving after a long trip,â he confesses to the catering girls. âThis spread looks amazing.â
Thereâs an urn of fresh coffee from a local roaster and a tray of caramelized delicata squash with burrata cheese lightly drizzled in balsamic, an abundant bread basket, smoked trout and a salad of organic greens.
Iâve always believed hunger can mean different things. Sometimes youâre just hungry, like after cardio training. Thatâs when you crave carbsâÂfettucini covered in parm, pommes Anna made with paper-Âthin potato slices, butter and herbs, or salted rosemary sourdough with a wedge of cheese.
Then thereâs the hunger that canât be filled by food. The cravings of the heart and spirit are not so easily satisfied.
One of the caterers talks about her studies at the U in Burlington. âIâm a nursing major,â she says. âI want to specialize in critical care.â
âWow. Makes my job sound pretty lightweight in comparison.â Self-Âeffacing charm. Thatâs his specialty.
âYouâve got millions of fans on YouTube whoâd disagree with that,â she says. âThatâs why I signed up for working this event. I wanted to meet you in person.â
âHey, really? You donât say. Thatâs cool.â The aw-Âshucks delivery is totally natural. Back when we first met, I couldnât get enough of it. I still canât, come to think of it.
âIâve been checking out the showâs website. I love the whole concept behind it, the way youâll be highlighting the key ingredient of each episode and building the story around it.â Sheâs almost but not quite gushing. Is gushing even allowed on set?
âThatâs our special sauce,â he says, appropriating a phrase Iâd used in pitching the show to the production company. âWeâre hoping it will become the thing that sets us apart from all the other stuff thatâs out there. Glad you like it.â
âItâs great. Itâs going to be so different from run-Âof-Âthe-Âmill cooking shows.â
âIâm all about keeping it fresh,â he declares. His assistant comes over and steals him to get him miked up again for filming.
The caterers keep talking.
â . . . almost instantly became a YouTube sensation,â one of them says. âThatâs what I heard. With looks like that, you donât have to wonder why he got so many views.â
The caterers have no idea Iâm the showâs creator, so they speak freely in front of me. They donât even seem to notice me. Iâm a ghost.
â . . . those videos online. Theyâre addictive, arenât they?â says one of them.
âWhat I heard was that some talent scout spotted the