tell youâon my fifth world, I had a little money for once. A whole gold piece, to be precise. I got an honest job in a tanneryâand carried the smell right through to the next world with me too. On my day off, I was strolling in the market looking for my favorite cakes. They were a little like Christmas puddings with icing onâgorgeous! Next thing I knew, a boy about my own age had come up beside me, given me a chop-and, chop-andâit darned well hurt tooâand run off with my gold piece. Naturally, I yelled and started to run after him. But he was under a wagon the next moment, dead as our neighborâs little girl back Home. His hand with the gold piece in it was sticking out, just as if he was handing it back to me, but I hadnât the heart to take it. I couldnât. It felt like my fault, that wagon.
After a while, I told myself I was imagining that rule. That boyâs corpse could have had a bad effect on play, just as They said mine would have done. But I think that was one of the things They meant by the risk adding to the fun. I didnât imagine that rule. The same sort of thing happened to me several times later on. The only one I didnât feel bad about was a rotten Judge who was going to put me in prison for not being able to bribe him. The roof of the courthouse fell in on him.
Rule Three isnât too good either. Time doesnât act the same in any world. It sort of jerks about as you go from one to another. But time hardly acts at all on a Homeward Bounder. I began to see that rule on my second time round the circle of worlds. The second time I got to the upside down one, for instance, nearly ten years had gone by, but only eight or so when I got to the next one. I still donât know how much of my own time I spent going round that lot, but I swear I was only a few days older. It seemed to me I had to be keeping the time of my own Home. But, as I told you, I still only seem about thirteen years old, and Iâve been on a hundred worlds since then.
By the time I had all this worked out, I was well on my second round of the circle. I had learned I wasnât going to get Home anything like as easily as I had thought. Sometimes I wondered if I was ever going to get there. I went round with an ache like a cold foot inside me over it. Nothing would warm that ache. I tried to warm it by remembering Home, and our courtyard and my family, in the tiniest detail. I remembered things I had not really noticed when they happenedâsilly things, like how particular our mother was over our boots. Boots cost a lot. Some of the kids in the court went without in summer, and couldnât play football properly, but we never went without. If my mother had to cut up her old skirt to make Elsie a dress in order to afford them, we never went without boots. And I used to take that for granted. Iâve gone barefoot enough since, I can tell you.
And I remembered even the face Elsie used to makeâshe sort of pushed her nose down her face so that she looked like a camelâwhen Robâs old boots were mended for her to wear. She never grumbled. She just made that face. I remember my father made a bit the same face when my mother wanted me to stay on at school. I swore to myself that Iâd help him out in the shop when I did get Home. Or go grinding on at school, if that was what they decided. Iâd do anything. Besides, after grinding away learning languages the way Iâd done, school might almost seem lively.
I think remembering that way made the cold foot ache inside me worse, but I couldnât stop. It made me hate Them worse too, but I didnât mind that.
All this while, Iâd never met a single other Homeward Bounder. I thought that was a rule too, that we werenât supposed to. I reckoned that we were probably set off at regular intervals, so that we never overtook one another. I knew there were others, of course. After a bit, I learned to pick up