and touched Budâs shoulder right before Mike climbed into the chopper and loaded him in.
I figured sheâd have to stay behind, as most people with critical patients do. So when Mike emerged and helped her inside behind her husband, warmth flooded through me. As EMS director, Mike had probably twisted a few arms to get Marge on that flight.
They closed the chopper doors, and Mike and his staff stepped away from the pad as the air ambulance lifted into the night sky.
I hadnât noticed, but the crowd of boys had moved in to flank me and now watched as their team mascot disappeared.
âWhat did Dad say?â Kevin asked me in a low voice. Heâd cut his hair shortly after the season started, and it had just grown long enough for it to be messy after a shower.
âHe suffered a major heart attack.â
I heard noises of dismay behind me.
âWill Bud be back for next weekâs game?â
I wasnât sure which heartless teen imbecile had asked that question, but being the only mother in sight, I turned and gave them all a look worthy of such a selfish remark. They cringed.
âWeâre just worried, Mom. Bud is our good luck charm. If we canât fin him on the way out to the field . . .â
Fin him? Then I remembered the hand-to-fin high fives the players always shared with Bud on their way out to the field and the worry in Kevinâs blue eyes clicked into place.
âWe need another mascot.â
The words were spoken beside me, but they reverberated in Kevinâs expression of gloom.
It took me five full seconds to make the connection between Kevinâs previous furtive glances, the words of his teammate, and the dire straits of the Big Lake Trouts.
âNo,â I said, without clarification.
âMom, pleaseââ
I couldnât believe it. âKevin, no. Iâve spent this entire season packing your lunches, driving to your games, supplying your team with cookies. . . . Iâm 100 percent behind you.â
âThenââ
I held up my hand. âBut I draw the line at posing as a fish. Itâs just a guy in a costume, Kevin. You can do this without a mascot. Itâll all work out.â I looked around the group, groping for reinforcements. The team stared back at me as if Iâd just told them they had to return a lost puppy to the shelter.
âNo,â I repeated. I took Kevinâs hand. I saw him blush and knew he was debating pulling it away to save face or letting me have my mom moment, in hopes of enticing me to cave. âBudâs not your good luck charm, because you donât need one. Youâre perfectly capable of going to state without slapping his fin.â
The silence following my words, the deep sighs, and the way Kevin ducked his head told me that they didnât believe that for a millisecond.
âPlease, Mom?â
The kid had reduced himself to begging. Right there in front of his friends. And then he put it in overdrive as he pitched his voice low and found my soft spots. âYou always say itâll work out, but how do you know? Maybe itâs not going to work out at all.â
I did say that all the time, but I also meant it. Still, the pleading in his eyes gave me pause.
I saw him suddenly, standing in the play yard, hands outstretched, calling for me. âMommy, I need you!â
I could feel my resolve give, just a smidge. What could it hurt? It was just a costumeâugly, yes, but something I could sort of hide inside, right?
For one game, maybe I could be a fish.
Then I remembered the googly eyes, the tail. The cowbell and pom-poms. Oh, please. Iâd rather be the churchâs hospitality chairperson than humiliate myself in front of the town. I could too easily imagine how the costume would hug my already-ample curves. It would be akin to running naked down Main Street screaming at the top of my lungs, at the height of the holiday season, no