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like that, the answer is obvious:
    Someone made it so.
    But hey. We’re not those kindsa people. We are can-do, not what-about—except for me, maybe. The pencilneck smiled at Sally Culpepper, and his victory grin went a bit slack as he realised we’d never had any intention of saying no, and we knew that he knew that we were expected to lose people. Just for a second I thought perhaps he was ashamed. And then he looked down at his feet and caught a glimpse of his messed up year’s-salary shoes, and he hated this stupid, ugly and above all
cheap
place, and his pencilneckhood rolled back as he found that part of himself which was indifferent, and he slipped gently into the warm water of not giving a damn.
    Look at him again: this is not Dick Washburn you’re seeing, not exactly. Dick has vacated possession for this bit of chat. Standing here is not Richard Godspeed Washburn, who sustained a nasty concussion on his fifteenth birthday, the very eve of the Go Away War, and who spent his next weeks in darkness and candlelight as the hospital he had gone to slowly shut down and ran out and fell apart, then grew to manhood in the new, broken world. This is not Quick Dick of the Harley Street Boys, who—before the orphanfinders came and settled him in a home of sorts and things got somewhat normal once again—could open the rear door of an army truck and pinch a pound of chocolate before the soldiers ever knew. This is Jorgmund itself, staring through Dick’s eyes and measuring things as numbers and profit margins. Of course, Jorgmund is nothing more than a shared hallucination, a set of rules which make up Richard Washburn’s job, and every time he does this—slips away from a human situation and lets the pattern use his mind and his mouth because he’d rather not make the decision himself—he edges a little closer to being a type C pencilneck. He loses a bit of his soul. There’s a flicker of pain and anger in him as the animal he is feels the machine he is becoming take another bite, and snarls in its cage, deep down beneath his waxed, buff pectorals and his second-best (or ninth-best) suit. But it’s really a very small animal, and not one of the fiercer ones.
    And then it was over. Deal done. Job on. I sidled over to Sally and murmured in her ear.
    â€œSo, before Dickwash showed up . . .”
    â€œHm.”
    â€œPhone call.”
    â€œYes.”
    â€œWrong number?”
    Sally shook her head. “I lied,” she murmured, just as quiet. “It was a woman. Didn’t know her.”
    â€œWhat did she say?”
    â€œShe said not to take the job.”
    â€œNice.”
    â€œYeah.”
    â€œAnything else?”
    â€œYes,” Sally said. “She asked for you, in particular.”
    And Sally didn’t say “Keep your eyes open” because she knew me, and that was fine. She nodded once and took the keys to her new truck from the pencilneck’s unresisting fingers.
    Sally and Jim in the first rig, me and Gonzo in the second, Tommy Lapland and Roy Roam in the third, and on to the back of the line. Twenty of us, two to a cab, ten trucks of bad hair, denim and spurs, with Tobemory Trent wearing his special-occasions eyepatch bringing up the rear. Trent was from Preston, born and bred in pork pie country with coal dust in his blood. He lost that eye in the Go Away War, had it taken out in a hurry so he wouldn’t die or worse. Trent spat on the road and roared, Captain goddam Ahab of the new highways, harpoon rack over the driver’s seat in case of trouble. He vaulted into the big chair and slammed the door hard enough to make the rig rock, and there was only one really important thing left to do. Sally and the pencilneck shook hands, Sally turned to look at us from the running board of her truck and there we were, proud and wired and dumb with eighteen-wheel delight. And Gonzo William Lubitsch of Cricklewood Cove, five foot eleven