The Girl Nobody Wants: A Shocking True Story of Child Abuse in Ireland Read Online Free PDF

then he pushed my head down hard and his dick went into my mouth.
    I didn’t want to do it and I tried to move my head away from him, but he grabbed me even tighter around my head and neck with both hands, while he told me to suck his dick for him. I said no, but he was holding my head so tight that I could feel the pressure in my head build up as he squashed my skull with both hands and, as I tried to move my head away from him, he just kept moving my head up and down, faster and faster. I had no control over what he was doing to me, I coughed and choked a lot, but it didn’t seem to bother him and he just carried on, moving my head up and down on his dick for a few more seconds until he had finished with me.
    Then he pushed me over to the other side of the bed and he told me that it was enough and then he handed me a proper lollypop that he grabbed from a glass bowl that was sitting on a cupboard next to the bed. And it looked like he had it all set up in advance and had planed the whole thing, then he told me not to tell anyone about our little secret and that if I was a good little girl for him, he would buy me lots of sweets and toys to play with. I began to cry and I felt sick, but he didn’t care and he just put his clothes back on, and then he told me to go back into the living room and to get back into my bed and to be a good girl for him and to be quiet.
    I did what he said, but I was upset by what he had just done to me, I was shaking, my belly felt sick and I had a bad pain in my head that wouldn’t go away and I wanted to go home. Then Tracy came back with Daisy and Simon and, as she walked into the living room, she walked over towards me and looked down at me and she patted me on the head. She then smiled as she put Simon and Daisy in the bed next to me and then she walked over to the bedroom that Fred was in; and as she walked into the bedroom, she smiled and closed the door behind her. I soon fell asleep, cuddling into Simon, and when I woke up the next morning, Daisy looked over at me and we said nothing. I couldn’t wait to go back home to mum’s house.

 
    CHAPTER 2
    Off to See Daddy in Ireland
     
    After about six months of us going around to Tracy’s flat and Fred constantly molesting me, mum told me that I couldn’t go there anymore because Tracy was pregnant and she was going to have a baby. Mum said that Tracy had no more time for me and she could not look after me anymore. God, I was so happy, I couldn’t believe it; I was finally getting away from Fred. However, it wasn’t long before mum decided that she too could not look after me, so she said that she had decided to send all three of us little kids back to our real dad, who lived in Ireland.
    We never knew our real dad because mum took us away from him when we were just babies; when she ran off with Jim, left Ireland and came to live in England. Even though mum said that we would be going to our dad in Ireland, we didn’t know when we would be going, as she never told us anything, and then one day it just happened. There had been many times before when mum would get us dressed in our best clothes and have us ready for something special, but then she would change her mind about what she was doing and instead she would send us out to play and we never knew what she had been up to. Now when I think back to it, she must have wanted to leave our step dad Jim and run back to our real dad in Ireland many times, but she never did. And until now, we had never heard anything about our real dad, apart from Jim calling him a bastard and a cunt to mum when they were having an argument.
    Now the time had come for us to leave and one day, while Jim was at work, mum packed all our clothes into a single small suitcase, and then she waited for one of our older brothers, Kevin, to arrive at the house. Then Daisy, Simon, Kevin and I all went off with mum to the underground station. Mum said that we were all going to Paddington train station and I will