Tags:
Romance,
Paranormal,
vampire,
Twilight,
love triangle,
Young Adult,
vegan,
Nature,
oregon,
Environmental,
eco-fiction,
eco-lit. ecoliterature,
ecolit,
Ashland
Itâs nothing more than that. Iâm with you now.â I reach over and give his hand a reassuring squeeze. âI just have a lot on my mind. School and stuff. Iâll see you back in town.â
âIâm not sure this is a good idea,â he says.
âWhy not? These trails are safe now. Romanâs gone. Victorâs gone. There are no vampires leftâexcept for you, right?â
âRight.â I can tell he hates it when I remind him that heâs a vampire, as if itâs all some bad memory heâs been trying to keep in the past. He may be vegan now, free from the blood of other living things, human or otherwise, but there had been many years of violence in his past. And I can see that it weighs on him. We all make mistakes. We all do things we canât take back. The way I canât take back the moment I turned my fatherâs gun on him, the moment it went off. And right now I need to be aloneâto prepare myself for the consequences, whatever they may be. While I have no intention of calling my dad, I know heâs not just going to disappear again.
âItâs not just vampires I worry about, Kat,â he says.
âThen what?â
âBears,â he says, though not very convincingly.
âRight, bears. Compared to a vampire, Iâm not all that worried. Go on, Alex, leave me alone for a while. Iâll be fine.â
âYouâre sure?â
âIâm sure. And maybe later I can help you with the protest signs. I even met someone at school who might want to help. Sheâs in my environmental class.â
Alex brightens. âThanks, Kat. We need all the help we can get.â Alex leans over to hug me but then realizes heâs covered in sweat. So he gives me a salty kiss, which I would enjoy much more if I werenât so worried about everything else.
I watch Alex head back down the trail, until heâs out of sight. I know I should head down after him, but instead I just stand there, listening to the sounds of birds bickering and leaves catching hold of the occasional slow breeze. There is a dryness to the air, the smell of dead pine needles, of kindling.
It hasnât rained in three months. And, worse, not enough snow fell in the mountains over the winter, which means less water is making its way down Lithia Creek, the townâs main source of water. Sometimes I can hear the creek from this trailâusually it roars over the rocks below, but today it barely whispers. Its silence is unsettling.
David told me that five years ago, right after he moved to Lithia, he looked up and saw flames on the hills right above town. Fortunately, the winds died down before the flames threatened homesâbut if theyâd picked up from the west, the fire wouldâve raced right down into town. Itâs part of the price people in Lithia pay to live here, David said: a little anxiety in the dry years.
Anxiety: Why did I think Iâd ever be free of it? I begin to walk down the trail, thinking back to that moment on campus with my dad. I remember looking around at the students passing by, looking for police hiding behind trees, waiting to arrest me. But all around me, life was normal. For all anyone knew, I was just another student meeting her father for lunch on campus. If only they really knew what was happening: a daughter coming face-to-face with the man she thought she had killed.
But my father didnât say anything about that. And thatâs one reason Iâm afraid to meet him. He said, I want to talk , and I could not say, About what? I didnât want to hear the answer.
Iâd fled back to where Iâd left Lucy, yet I couldnât concentrate on the paper we were working on; I kept looking around, worried heâd followed me. Whatâs the matter? she kept asking, and I finally told her that I didnât feel well and had to go home. I regretted it later: There she was, my first school friend, and now