do?â
âYou really donât know?â
Jed shook his head.
Mr Garbett handed him a white plastic box on the end of a wire. âSay something.â
Jed couldnât think of anything.
âSit down here.â Mr Garbett patted his own knee. âEasier to think of something sitting down.â
Jed sat on his knee. Mr Garbett smelt like casinos when you walk past their open doors first thing in the morning. Drink and smoke and money thatâs been through too many hands.
âNow,â Mr Garbett said, âsay something.â
Jed watched him turn a fat white switch. The eyes on the top of the machine began to revolve. A green light glowed.
âDonât know what to say,â Jed muttered.
âThatâll do it.â The eyes spun back the other way, stopped, then began to revolve again. Mr Garbett put a hand on Jedâs hip. âNow,â he whispered, âlisten.â
A gritty roaring sound, like the ocean dragging pebbles.
âHear that?â Mr Garbett said. âThatâs the room.â
Jed looked around to see where the roar was coming from, then he heard a small, sullen voice: âDonât know what to say.â
âWhat do you think of that?â Mr Garbett said.
Jed knew exactly what he thought. âThatâs even better than a radio,â he said, and watched as Mr Garbettâs hands fumbled at the buttons on his jeans.
He felt he was spreading outwards, moving outwards fast, like ink being soaked up by a piece of blotting paper. He had no centre and no edges and he was moving outwards smoothly, and there was nothing in his head.
Some time later he heard a voice say, âDid you like that?â and the voice was disembodied, as if it had come out of the tape recorder.
He opened his eyes. The room had shrunk and turned yellow, but it was piled high with junk he recognised. âYes,â he said.
âReally?â
âIt was nice.â
âWell,â Mr Garbett said, âif you donât say nothing about it, maybe itâll happen again.â
âA secret?â
âThatâs it. A secret.â
Jed nodded and slipped off Mr Garbettâs knee. He knew all about secrets. Most of his radios were secrets. One secret more or less didnât make any difference.
âYou forgot something,â Mr Garbett said.
Jed turned in the doorway.
Mr Garbett pointed at the tape recorder on the table, but Jed still didnât understand.
âYou can have it,â Mr Garbett said.
Jed wasnât used to being given things. âThe tape recorder?â
Mr Garbett smiled. âIâve got hundreds.â
Jed lifted the machine off the table and stood with it in his arms and couldnât think what to say, so he repeated what heâd said before, only with more intensity this time. âItâs better than a radio.â And then he had a moment of clairvoyance. âIt sort of makes my radios dead.â
Mr Garbett nodded. âMaybe.â He walked Jed to the front of the shop. âSay you got it from a scrapyard.â He looked around. âItâs the truth, really.â
But Jed never had to say anything. He sneaked it in through his bedroom window, the same way heâd sneaked all his radios in. He hid it under the bed, wrapped in an old curtain.
And then, no more than a couple of weeks later, he came home from school one afternoon to find the radios gone. Every single one of them. A deft glance under the bed told him that sheâd missed the tape recorder. That was something. But still. Over one hundred radios. He turned cold inside and something tightened in his head.
âThey were garbage, Jed. Most of them didnât even work.â
She had come up behind him, while heâd been staring at the emptiness in his room. He turned slowly. She was fixing her hair up in a soft knot with both hands, so she looked like some kind of vase. If heâd been big enough he