at her phone’s display,
fully prepared to cuss her mother out for not respecting her words.
But it wasn’t her mom’s name that she read on the screen,
it was Alex’s. Scrambling to dry her hands, Bianca snatched the
phone from the mat regardless of her brain screaming at her to avoid
him. She was done avoiding. After today’s news, she knew life
could take time away from you at the drop of a pin.
“Hello?”
She answered breathlessly. Hoping that what she had been doing
earlier didn’t show in her voice. She was slightly embarrassed
that she was so carried away in the moment.
“Bianca?
Are you alright? I texted you earlier but you didn’t respond. I
know I said I’d give you some time but…” Alex’s
voice trailed off as Bianca cut in.
“No, it’s
okay. I’m fine.” Bianca lied. She restrained herself from
snorting at her falsehood. Fine was a gross understatement.
“Are you sure?
You don’t sound fine.” Alex stated, his voice sounding
entirely too sure that he was right.
Bianca sighed; if
she wanted to pursue a relationship with this man lying was not the
way to begin. But should she pursue it? After the news she received
today, a relationship might not be an option right now, unless he
wanted to have a baby with her. The thought that had been niggling at
the back of her mind came to the fore and she gasped, not willing to
entertain it. They had just met, after all.
“Bianca,
please.” Alex muttered, all but begging her to open up to him.
Bianca sighed again,
“So I wasn’t being completely honest,” She began,
wanting to explain everything but not over the phone. “I think
we should talk, in person.” Holding her breath she waited for
him to respond.
“I’ll be
right over,” He barked into the phone. The line went dead
before she could even say goodbye. Bianca guessed now would be the
perfect time to get out of the rapidly cooling bath.
*****
Alex
yanked his jeans on, not taking the time for a belt. He’d been
dying to see Bianca for days and finally succumbed to calling her.
Now she wanted him to stop by at a moment’s notice but sounded
like she had bad news. He was a bit concerned that she was going to
break it off with him completely. Alex wasn’t sure what he
would do with that news, but he wasn’t going down without a
fight. He liked her, really liked her.
Insecurity lodged itself in his gut. Alex wasn’t used to
feeling so helpless about situations. He was a Lieutenant in the Air
Force for Christ sake; he needed to pull himself together.
With a wince of
uncertainty, Alex slid his feet into his boots, unlaced, and snatched
his keys from the table. Making sure he had his phone, he dashed out
the door to Bianca’s house, praying that she still wanted to be
with him.
*****
Bianca frantically
smoothed her hair with anxiety for the fourth time, nervousness
assailing her. How would she tell him about her issue? Would he still
want to be with her after he found out she may not be able to have
children? Adjusting her oversized t-shirt to cover her leggings clad
ass, Bianca looked out the window again to see if Alex’s car
was pulling up. It had only been ten minutes but she was getting
anxious that he wouldn’t show up. Anxiety bubbled in her
stomach and she paced around the room. Why was this making her so
crazy? She knew why. Alex was everything she wanted in a man, kind,
funny, sexy, and he had a great job. Another thought made her stomach
flutter again. What if he was going to re-enlist soon? Maybe this
whole thing was a mistake.
On her second lap
around the living room, Bianca heard the roar of an engine as it
pulled into her driveway. Resisting the need to peek through the
blinds again, Bianca waited, her hands clasped, in the center of the
room. She didn’t want to seem too eager, but she really missed
him those three days they hadn’t spoken and seeing him when she
had this awful news to convey was more than she could take. A glimpse
at her appearance in the