explain some things to you. Nothing is wrong with you. Everything is just fine. Youâre justâyouâre just a young girl, thatâs all, and this is one of the things that happens to young girls. Itâs a good thing, really it is. Oh, Iâm so glad you were here and I could take care of you.â
I was glad of that, too, so relieved to not be facing the prospect of death that I could forgive my mother for not warning me about this most curious fact of life. Betsy didnât forgive her, though; I could tell. Betsy never said a word against my motherâor, indeed, against anyone elseâin my hearing. But I could tell she thought my mother unnatural, even cruel. It gave me some comfort to know that, if there was an odd creature living in my house, Betsy did not think I was the strange one. Betsy thought I was an ordinary girl.
Up until Wintermoon, there were only three times Gryffin and I missed our twice-weekly visit to the Parmer homestead. Once was when the whole Parmer house was down with influenza and Sarah warned us not to come over. Once was when my mother caught the very same infection, and I had to stay home to nurse her.
Once was when Gryffin was in too much pain to go.
I hadnât thought much about it that morning when I stopped at his uncleâs tavern on my way to school. Usually Gryffin was waiting for me outside, or just inside the door on cold days. This morning he was nowhere in sight, and it was a good ten minutes before someone answered my pounding at the back door. Taverns tended to be open late at night, so those who staffed it were not traditionally early risers. I knew it, but I kept knocking anyway. Eventually the door was opened by Gryffinâs aunt, a thin, hollow-eyed woman with stringy hair. She was wearing a nightdress and looked ill-tempered.
âWhat do you want?â she snapped.
âGryffin. I walk to school with him.â
Her face softened a bit; she actually looked sad. âOh. Iâm afraid he wonât be going to school today.â
âWhy not? Is he sick?â
She hesitated a moment before answering. âHis legs are bothering him, thatâs what,â she said. âHe canât walk that far.â
I hitched my book bag on my shoulder. âWellâshould I come by tonight? And see how heâs doing? I can bring his assignments so he wonât fall behind.â
âI donât know if heâll be much better tonight,â she said doubtfully.
âIâll come by anyway,â I said. âJust to see.â
âIf you want to,â she said, and shut the door in my face.
At school, I told Sarah that Gryffin was unavailable for the evening tutoring session but that I hoped heâd be well in a couple of days. At lunch and during the play periods, I lurked in the shadows of the schoolhouse, hoping to escape attention. Two of the little girls whom Gryffin tutored came and sat with me, and that was all right. Carlon and his friends didnât usually bother me if I had any audience at all. But the girls insisted on playing some elaborate imaginary game that involved them meeting a prince at some Summermoon ball. This required them to describe in great detail the fabulous dresses they would wear at the event, and I was really quite bored. At the afternoon break, I spent the entire period teaching them how to throw a rock with enough accuracy that they could actually hit something ten yards away, and I, at least, enjoyed that much more.
After school, I gathered up my books, accepted Gryffinâs assignment from Mr. Shelby, and headed back to the tavern. No one answered my knock this time, either, but I knew the household was up. It was early afternoon, but people were already coming into the tavern for an afternoon drink or an early dinner. No doubt Gryffinâs aunt and uncle were too busy to even hear me.
I pushed experimentally at the door and found it unlocked, so I opened it and stepped