stare?â
âNo. But I did mention that the chief of policeâs girlfriend worked at the shop. Just to make it clear there was no point in trying to rob it,â she said. âAnd he had the funniest answer.â
Carrie poured another coffee and plated another cupcake. She nodded to someone behind me, and I saw that it was Jesse. âOn the house,â she said. âIâm sorry about your friend.â
Jesse took a long drink from his coffee. âThanks, Carrie,â he said. âNell, you want to sit on the couch?â He posed it like a question, but he was already walking toward it.
âIn a second,â I called after him. âWhat did Roger say, Carrie?â
She leaned in and whispered, âHe said, âI hope she likes heartache.ââ
Jesse and I settled into the big purple couch by the window. I was watching him, but he was staring past me at a mural Iâd painted on the wall when Carrie first opened the place.
âYouâre very talented,â he said. âYou could be a painter, if thatâs what you want to do.â
Iâd often wondered what career Iâd pursue when I finished art school in the spring, and I was happy to talk about it with Jesse. But not now. Not when I could see he was using it to avoid discussing what was really on his mind.
âHave you learned anything since this morning?â I asked.
âNo. I talked to Anna. She was heartbroken. They were separated, but that didnât necessarily mean . . .â He seemed to lose his train of thought. He kept staring at the mural, a depiction of a big city skyline being poured from a coffeepot.
âIt didnât mean . . .â I prompted after a few minutes.
âLizzie used to say that when you really love someone, you always love them. No matter what comes between you. Even death.â
âShe was right,â I said.
Jesse kept staring at the mural.
âDo you want something to eat?â
âI have that.â He pointed toward his uneaten chocolate cupcake.
âI meant food; a sandwich, a salad, something like that.â
âI was thinking that maybe Roger came up to talk to me about Anna,â he said.
âBut you said you hadnât seen him in three years.â
âI kept in touch with Anna. Kind of. She sent Christmas cards and presents for Allie. And weâd e-mail once in a while.â
âDid she ever say anything about their marriage?â
âNo. Sheâd just ask what Allie was up to; how my mom was doing; questions about you.â He smiled. âAnd she talked about the business sheâd started. It was really haphazard. Maybe once every couple of months or so.â
âSo why would Roger want to talk to you about her?â
He shrugged. We were sitting next to each other, but there was a distance between us. I wanted to comfort him, to share his grief, but I could feel him closing me out.
âYou havenât been in touch in several years,â I said, âso maybe Roger wanted to talk to you about something from your days in New York. Maybe an old case or a friend you had in common. Has there been anyone from that time that youâve talked to lately? Did you get an unexpected Christmas card, or maybe a phone call? Something you might not have placed any importance on?â
Jesse sat there staring out the window. I waited in silence until it was clear he didnât intend to answer me.
âCarrie said Roger was here last night,â I told him, âlooking out this window across the street at Someday Quilts.â
Jesse looked at me. It was the first indication I had that heâd been listening. âWhy?â
âI donât know. Carrie told him your girlfriend worked at the shop.â
âThat was a mistake,â he said. Then he got up. âI should go.â
âJesse, I want to help you.â
âI know. I just donât think you
Lee Iacocca, Catherine Whitney